tantrum_child

what could i tell you about the beauty of today?
last night i took a letter to B
it told him i don't want to do this anymore
i want dates
and picnics
and holding hands

i don't want intensity
and clutching
and jealousy
drama
pain

i want casual
and carefree
we're not even together
i don't want to be married
already

he cried for ages
he told me there's so much
he wants to say
but i'd made up my mind
change is change
words are nothing


i love him
it hurt
but it's how it has to be
and hopefully he'll come back to me
when he's ready
to let go
of his boundaries

it was nice
i feel liberated
i feel strong
and i feel happy

the sun is shining, a lot.

i'm about to wash my car for the first time in... a year?
i will also clean all the old fast food wrappers out of it
about time!


this morning i spent my time at my little brother's school.
he is 5 and is enrolled in a language development class
that in itself was a beautiful thing
the teachers are incredible
it makes me want to finish my degree

my brother, arki, cried because he couldn't draw a crocodile
when i picked him up he was wearing a beanie and grinning from ear to ear
he said "i wuuuwwww yowww" which in his speak, means I love You, and fills me with sunshine on the rainiest days
I also went to Freo which felt like home and always does, I miss that place.

I'll leave you with this image: