so...
I'm going to Broome.
This is the single most scary and exciting thing I've ever done.
I don't know if I'd be nearly as emotional if I didn't think there's a chance of my not returning.
My toes are itchy, I want to go now, fly, be away, be free, be my own.
I wish it was today. I wish it was this week. I wish I had the money to stay away for longer.
But it's prompted thinking, I might up and leave some time soon, find someone to rent this house with Georgie, or just when my lease is up, just go, up north, near a beach, work and live and study & just be me.
I miss being me.
I spent the last 4 days puppysitting and house sitting near the beach in Cottesloe. For the first time in forever, I wasn't scared to spend a night alone, I wasn't worried, I wasn't bored or lonely, and I didn't even have the internet. I don't think I'm a friends kind of person. I'm social, no doubt, but I don't see myself living out this life having a constant circle of friends. I don't see myself needing much really, but teaching and motherhood (single motherhood doesn't worry me either, I don't need marriage or a lover, it's not necessary to me), and that being the case, what is keeping me in this town? Why not move to the upper north, to a pristine white sand beach with clear water and blue skies where beauty is in the air?
I don't need to stay here, it only holds me back, and reminds me of all the things they think i should be that i never will be.
I want to fly.
I'm going to Broome.
This is the single most scary and exciting thing I've ever done.
I don't know if I'd be nearly as emotional if I didn't think there's a chance of my not returning.
My toes are itchy, I want to go now, fly, be away, be free, be my own.
I wish it was today. I wish it was this week. I wish I had the money to stay away for longer.
But it's prompted thinking, I might up and leave some time soon, find someone to rent this house with Georgie, or just when my lease is up, just go, up north, near a beach, work and live and study & just be me.
I miss being me.
I spent the last 4 days puppysitting and house sitting near the beach in Cottesloe. For the first time in forever, I wasn't scared to spend a night alone, I wasn't worried, I wasn't bored or lonely, and I didn't even have the internet. I don't think I'm a friends kind of person. I'm social, no doubt, but I don't see myself living out this life having a constant circle of friends. I don't see myself needing much really, but teaching and motherhood (single motherhood doesn't worry me either, I don't need marriage or a lover, it's not necessary to me), and that being the case, what is keeping me in this town? Why not move to the upper north, to a pristine white sand beach with clear water and blue skies where beauty is in the air?
I don't need to stay here, it only holds me back, and reminds me of all the things they think i should be that i never will be.
I want to fly.
woohaa!
i left my purse in a damn store. luckily it was laaate so an employee picked it up before anyone could get it.
i went out last night and didnt drink. it made me feel mellow in a good way. im pretty content to just lay low have more quality times with friends. .i guess being me is what im trying to do as well !
when are you going up to broome ? im desperate for the beach and beach weather. winter is sucking big time. especially in adeliade. and im totally missing out on summer this year. but i get two in a row next year!!
xx