Hello,
I know I've been kinda M.I.A lately, because my projects and also my new job.
The past three weeks had happen a lot, got to say.
I met a wonderful guy, performed my very first burlesque show and lot more. But right now I am having such a bad time with everything..
This guy, he is amazing and I have to say that I might be falling in love with him, I know its soon but thats how I feel, but sometimes i dont really understand the situation and he is having this ex-girlfriend-kind-of situation and im not comfortable with that... So that actually makes me think a lot.. overthink, think that he's maybe not that into me, or maybe he is but he's confused about this situation and actually Im not in a position to be waiting for someone, regardless of feelings.
Thats one thing.
There is this special date coming up, the anniversary of my grandpa's pass away. He flew over the clouds 6 years ago but i was never able to get over the fact that he's gone... I always feel him around me but I have never been able to talk with him and let everything go. And I really miss him, its hard for me to not to cry when talking about him, or even thinking about him...
I feel like I have 0 control over my life or my feelings right now and that makes me feel anxious and sick.
I need help and I need to rest.
I cannot keep writing this