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What do I want?

I want to have more time. I want to do well in school. I want to find a better job. I don't want to be stuck in a cubical the rest of my life. I want to travel. I want to live in exotic places. I want to meet people. I want to make more friends. I want to be more outgoing. I want to learn all there is to know. I want to impress folk with my knowledge. I want to not only have this knowledge but also wisdom to go with it. I want to go on an adventure. I want to face the unknown. I want to face danger....and laugh. I want to be loved. I want to know the touch of a woman. I want to have my own 'happily ever after'. I want to feel the 'thrill of the chase'. I want to be shot. I want to learn tai chi. I want to be my own person. I want to make decisions without fear. I want to be certain of outcomes. I want to have no doubt. I want to be remembered. I want to just leave without knowing where it is I am going. I want to help people. I want to be able to make others happy. I want to be a marytr. I want to save a live, at the expence of my own. I want to wrestle a bear. I want to have 'the money'. I want to harden my heart. I want to show no emotion. I want to become like stone.....and then find someone to soften me. I want to be talented. I want to make art. I want to be able to express myself. I want my life to be like a movie. I want to be in a movie. I want to have 'things to do, places to go, people to see'. I want to be important. I want to burden of making a decision that will effect hundreds of people. I want to be able to delegate my responsibilities. I want responsibilities. I want to sleep for a week straight. I want to be isolated. I want to reflect on my life. I want my life to be reflected upon by others. I want to live out my days alone. I want to be forgotten. I want to hide. I want to give up.

I want.....to know what I really want.