Now, I don't generally like to use this area to whine, complain, and otherwise release agnst. But I see this as an active record of my thoughts and I would be lying to myself if I omitted it, plus its just one of those days. Normally I enjoy my solitude, normally I don't want people around me, they usually end up just bothering me, normally I am perfectly happy spending my days and nights completly alone, normally I know I will live my life out in solitude and it dosen't bother me, not today.
Today I woke up an thought to myself, I have no friends left, and this depressed me. I suppose these feelings stemmed from a dream I had, not so much a reaccuring dream but the characters and setting is always the same (I could probably draw up blueprints to this house it take place in). In this dream I was living in this house with two other people, not family but friends, an old man and a little girl. Sure it sounds strange but we all get on like best friends. Nothing eventfull happened, we were just there, living. To get to the point, I woke up, I have no friends, I have no way of making friends, and I grow more reclusive every day. I suppose in short I am just lonely, it will pass and I will be fine (and even happy) with my situation, but not today.
Today I woke up an thought to myself, I have no friends left, and this depressed me. I suppose these feelings stemmed from a dream I had, not so much a reaccuring dream but the characters and setting is always the same (I could probably draw up blueprints to this house it take place in). In this dream I was living in this house with two other people, not family but friends, an old man and a little girl. Sure it sounds strange but we all get on like best friends. Nothing eventfull happened, we were just there, living. To get to the point, I woke up, I have no friends, I have no way of making friends, and I grow more reclusive every day. I suppose in short I am just lonely, it will pass and I will be fine (and even happy) with my situation, but not today.
I sort of feel you on this... This is pretty much how my days play themselves out, on a regular basis, pretty much. I can't say the same for the dream, as mine are equally weird, if not more so, but different...
A while back, I actually made an effort to try to be more outgoing and "social", to get out there and "do things". Clubs. Parties. All sorts of shit. It seemed like a smart thing to do at the time...
Conclusion? It's not worth it. It's hard work being that damn shallow and superficial... Your situation seems to be the same as my situation, and I'm cool with things as they are for the time being.
Gotta love the internet though...