Just a quick note to say thank you for all of the love lately! Logging in here and feeling all the love is something I am truly grateful for! Thank you all from the bottom of my heart!
Things are still going well, it's day to day and some are harder than others. I am still trying to sit with the pain and anxiety when it comes on, but I really struggle to feel 'safe and protected' to do this. When I am home alone I can get really terrified. Those are the worst moments.
My Acupuncturist is incredible and very understanding of these feelings. He encourages and challenges me when I feel like things are getting too hard and I want to slip back into behaviours of isolation and avoidance. He's also referred me to another counsellor/therapist who is supportive of a holistic approach to everything. I've been to my fair share of counsellors and therapists over the years, and most are more than willing to recommend anti-depressants, cognitive behaviour to distract, etc. but I find that these haven't been helpful for me, which isn't a failure necessarily, just not right for me.
This isn't a terrible thing, it's just that this time I am at the point where I know I need to face a lot of these demons from the past and move through them rather than avoid them. This therapist is very much into the spiritual journey as well as art and music therapies. All I need to do is make an appointment! :)
I hope you are all well and having a wonderful Easter break, hubby and I are relaxing and enjoying each other's company which is always the best! We're heading up to my parents place on Monday for an Easter Egg hunt for the nephews (my mum is trying to make this a yearly tradition). It is amazing to watch the gorgeous kids run around looking for eggs and following dad's talcum powder bunny prints across the patio. Not much can beat true joy on a kids face.
Once again, thank you for all the love and support, it has lifted me up on days I wasn't feeling the best. You are all amazing. Much love. Xxx
