tamson

im sad

but i suppose you wouldnt have to be too smart to notice that

today i cried most of the day at work & last night i cried most of the early night.

Broke up with bf, due to me being depressed most of the time and then i dont talk to him & dont know how to act cus i know he gets angry & grumpy when im sad or dont talk.. and it just pushes me futher away because then i am scared to say anything incase its the wrong thing.. then i get sad because im a boring person & no fun to hang around cus i feel sad n crap n why would hewant to hang around someone like that and i know he'd be having tons more fun if he wasnt around me... and thats the way it goes

so im going to brisbane tomorrow & even though its going to cost me a fortune to take rocky, im taking him with me, because lets face it, hes the best friend i have at the moment AND ITS A FUCKING DOG.

i shouldnt say that, because barry has been very good to me lately & i really appreciate it xx



apart from this i have nothing to say, im running home to my mum for comfort only instead of a usual 30min-1hour drive as most ppl have, i have to take to the air for an hour thirty

hoping i can sort my head out & try and be happy & then im hoping to come back n try things with bf again, but maybe that it is unrealistic expectation, as i dont expect him to wait, im sure over the next few weeks he will have much fun with other girls

*tries to not think about this*

but i know its true,

hope everyone has a good week & is happy