tamson

Do you ever feel like this?

so this weekend was the moving weekend, shanna moved out,, i moved into her room and aiden into my old room so that is cool, butits so weird being in this room, i dont know why, it just is, i guess it will take some getting used to

rocky (my dog) is very lonely without dema (shannas dog) he has acted strange the last few days since dema left and he just seems bored, and i try to play with him but i cant sit therer and just play all day.. and i spose its gunna take him a while to get used to it.. Tuesday will be interesting him being at home all day on his own

i really wanted to go to psy party in the bush this weekend, i have been looking forward to it for months and i even changed my flights to brisbane for next week so that i could go to the party, but i had to buy so much house stuff + a fridge i couldnt afford to go.. i was so majorly cut, i havent been out to a party in about 2 months, since tahlianas going aay party, and that was at our house, but im so eager just to go out in the bush and just dance and let loose, and forget about the real world.. its a great release and i want to see all my friends that i havent seen in ages n just have fun & laugh.. but i dont think the next bush party is fpr 2 months, so i spose ill be waiting a long time.. there is some indoor psy parties which i hope to go to but its not t5he same, your in a dark club with loud music, you cant talk n hang with your friends, you just go n all you can do is drink n dance.. but i just wanna take acid and llauuuuuuuuuughhhhhhhh. hmm bugger.. jut bad timing for having to buy all this stuff.

still duno whats going on with the boy.. its such headfuck, and maybe that is just me.. i dont really know and im sick of thinking about it, so thats all im going to say about that..

ill be in brisbane from thursdaynight til monday.. i wont have time to meet up with anyone tho... ill have to spend all my time with my ,mum & grandparents, as always.. and if even try to get away they give me the guilt trip.. which kinda sux, it will be good to get away from here, but everytime i go to visit my family i come back more stressed than what i was when i left....
arggghhh

i wish it was a sunny today so ic ould go lay in the sun.. mm sun. but its cloudy.. so maybe ill take a bath instead
mm yeah

have good days .