tallahassee

fml. i just typed out a whole blog and bc of my faulty internet i just lost it all. well, it was something like this:

so im not really sure what happened to me yesterday. it was like someone flipped all the bad switches in my brain on at once. i just kept saying these horrible things to the few ppl who were kind enough to listen to my bitching about how awful this weekend is and will continue to be (which is y i turned down the offers ppl here on sg gave me to talk. like i said, it was nothing personal, i was just worried i'd offend you too.) no matter what i did i just felt worse and worse until finally i was so tired and worn out that i fell asleep.

i woke up this morning achey all over and moer tired than when i went to bed, but feeling like myself again. it's still a shitty weekend, that hasn't changed, but i don't feel quite as negatively about it. i can actually seem to focus on the good things coming up in the next couple weeks. i'm just going to try to get back to the mellow hippie that i normally am rather than the angry little hellion that i seemed to be last night.