tailofdogma

my god i have this blood curdling, toe-clenching feeling rising up through-out my body. i need a catharsis, or a tattoo that says it. I need change, i need grand forks. i need minneapolis. of all things, i feel the need to step into a deep long-term relationship. i'm sure this feeling is somehow my fault but with no real ex-girlfriends in the background clouding my judgements, i just want something new. Or rather, something new i can blame my problems on.

I have the itch!

last night i went into the captains pub (the shitty college bar in town) with a couple of friends of mine that are dating and it just depressed me. then i looked at all the people dating in the bar and i got more depressed. so i ditched them to drink at the broken spoke. better to be in a place that's quiet and depressing than loud and depressing. Or at least that's what i thought.

i no longer work at the liquor store. i read something tonight that Cass would have enjoyed or at least enjoyed discussing. An essay titled 'i want a wife' written by a woman. quite the amusing read. hell, i want a servant too!

i'm going to grand forks this weekend. haven't decided upon my itinerary or who i'm visiting. i just know that i'm in need of a long walk downtown and around campus to clear my head. And that at some point i'm visiting and drinking with Kat.

Enjoy the silence!!