LETS UPDATE
I feel like I am two steps behind me, I should be ahead and I am not. I am finally home from the military, but discovering how to define home. I discover that what I may have been looking for was a distorted image of what happiness should be, and I am finding myself in another place. Its funny the places that we find ourselves. Today I had a pause, I just stopped what I was doing, looked around and thought "How the fuck did I get here". But here isnt a bad place to be, just different than what I thought it would be. I am still single, which doesnt bother me, but i miss the sex and the companionship. I havent dated anyone really fun in a long time, and that makes me think of Heather. And thinking of Heather isnt something I like to do. I would rather have Gulf War Syndrome, or slip and break my leg (ok so that is an exageration). Anyway, I hope to recover something soon, to get back on track and get my mind right.
I feel like I am two steps behind me, I should be ahead and I am not. I am finally home from the military, but discovering how to define home. I discover that what I may have been looking for was a distorted image of what happiness should be, and I am finding myself in another place. Its funny the places that we find ourselves. Today I had a pause, I just stopped what I was doing, looked around and thought "How the fuck did I get here". But here isnt a bad place to be, just different than what I thought it would be. I am still single, which doesnt bother me, but i miss the sex and the companionship. I havent dated anyone really fun in a long time, and that makes me think of Heather. And thinking of Heather isnt something I like to do. I would rather have Gulf War Syndrome, or slip and break my leg (ok so that is an exageration). Anyway, I hope to recover something soon, to get back on track and get my mind right.
Have a good day!