tadhg6

Going through a break up with someone who you've been with for a very long time is so unbelievably hard. Especially when they've done things you've never thought they would ever do. Even as they continue to do things that hurt you and spout out words of love and care that seem so empty due to their actions. All that trust broken and lost. All that pain both mental and physical. The pain and horrid thoughts can be almost too much to bare, but you try you're best and hang on the best you can. Having to deal with a customer driven job. Trying to fake smiles and happiness, while all the while you are dying and writhing in pain on the inside. Never really sure that you'll be happy again. Thinking if love is even worth trying to find again. Why search for love again if this could happen once more? Holding on if only by a thread at times. Trying so very hard not to let go.