tabby

For the last few weeks I've been confused about feelings I've had for a ex who is now dating his ex, whom I told him...date anyone..ANYONE, and ill be so incredibly happy for you..if your happy, just dont date HER! and well..guess who he's dating now, yep the slutty bitch. So anyways..the day he told me, I really truly thought I could care less, and regardless of the person I'd be happy for him..but as the days went by and I saw new myspace pics of them, comments to and from each other..etc..I started to feel something..I got so upset because I thought..am I jealous??am I not totally over him??how could that be..then I start thinking of those things about him that I hate...the way he flirts with every girl who will show him a pinch of attention..his cockyness..selfishness..and then I stop feeling anything..but as soon as I see something new that involves her..this feeling flares up again..and today..TODAY i finally figured out what it is..I just hate the bitch, what Im feeling is pure hatred for HER. this bitch has tried to screw me over in every way possible..just for the fact that my ex loved me and picked me over her repeatdly and not her..she's had an obsession for him ever since they broke up..almost 4 and a half years ago..which is when he and I started dating. its so nice to finally realize this. and as much as I dont have romantic feelings for the ex anymore, I still do care about him, he was my first love and first pretty much everything..we spent around 2 and a half years together, he was my highschool sweetheart,etc etc and I just think he could do better than that goldigging, whore. and..man, its really not jealousy..its just shes a horrible person, and i swear if i could pick one(well 2...theres one other person on the same level of haterd that I have) people that could just dissapear off the face of the earth, one of them would be her.

The end.