First off.. it is 4 am and I am mad
I just wrote a blog and accidentally deleted it
2nd off I started writing it at 3 am
Why was I up at 3 am?
Because at 130 I got a phone cal from a number not saved in my phone. But it looked familiar so I answered it
Guess who it was
Just guess
Yep.. Tyrone
So first he is mad because I dont know who it is and he realizes I have deleted his number and he hangs up on me.
FUCK THAT
1st; its 130 in the morning; you do not call me and then hang up
2nd: you have nt fucking right to be mad at me for anything
3rd fuck you
(all things i am planning to say as I call him back)
the first half of the conversation is me being pissed
He asks why i deleted his number and I tell him
"look; we were both so excited to see each other; then you blew me off but were hanging with some girl; and I asked a mutual friend what was going on and he laughed at me and said he thought i knew about her. I got played so i deleted the number"
(throws in claim that this girl is a friend of his famiy's who lives in vegas)
he gets mad saying he didnt play me things are just complicated there is something going on that he doesnt want to talk about it and that i will hate him for it
we go back and forth on this for awhile then i say.. i start crying cause i am so mad and upset.. he gets really quiet and tries to get me to stop crying and asks why i am so upset; i say; cause i really like you and care about you and you broke my heart.
and he tells me again its complicated; and i tel him it isnt; that deciding he wants to be with someone else isnt complicated; and he tells me he isnt with any one else
that he is going through something that is majorly effecting his life and he's been trying to get his shit together. I said that's all he had to tell me; that he needed time to figure out what he wanted.. and hes says
I know what I want; I want you!
WHOA unexpected
Which leads to the second half of the conversation.. which includes him crying
Apparently a few months ago (like before we started to get more serious in april.. during one of those dont know whats going on hardly hear from each other times)
He hooked up with a girl and she got pregnant
with twins
and after the initial shock he got excited about them
and then the girl had a miscarriage.
So much talking goes on afterwards.. in which i tell him i dont hate him because of this. we werent together.. i could just as easily have hooked up w/ someone then and gotten pregnant myself.
i am however mad at how it was handled.. but he's all apologetic and crying
And he tells me he really does care about me and he is really excited for me to move there and he wants to know if I can come out sooner so we can spend time together
Now what?!
I just wrote a blog and accidentally deleted it
2nd off I started writing it at 3 am
Why was I up at 3 am?
Because at 130 I got a phone cal from a number not saved in my phone. But it looked familiar so I answered it
Guess who it was
Just guess
Yep.. Tyrone
So first he is mad because I dont know who it is and he realizes I have deleted his number and he hangs up on me.
FUCK THAT
1st; its 130 in the morning; you do not call me and then hang up
2nd: you have nt fucking right to be mad at me for anything
3rd fuck you
(all things i am planning to say as I call him back)
the first half of the conversation is me being pissed
He asks why i deleted his number and I tell him
"look; we were both so excited to see each other; then you blew me off but were hanging with some girl; and I asked a mutual friend what was going on and he laughed at me and said he thought i knew about her. I got played so i deleted the number"
(throws in claim that this girl is a friend of his famiy's who lives in vegas)
he gets mad saying he didnt play me things are just complicated there is something going on that he doesnt want to talk about it and that i will hate him for it
we go back and forth on this for awhile then i say.. i start crying cause i am so mad and upset.. he gets really quiet and tries to get me to stop crying and asks why i am so upset; i say; cause i really like you and care about you and you broke my heart.
and he tells me again its complicated; and i tel him it isnt; that deciding he wants to be with someone else isnt complicated; and he tells me he isnt with any one else
that he is going through something that is majorly effecting his life and he's been trying to get his shit together. I said that's all he had to tell me; that he needed time to figure out what he wanted.. and hes says
I know what I want; I want you!
WHOA unexpected
Which leads to the second half of the conversation.. which includes him crying
Apparently a few months ago (like before we started to get more serious in april.. during one of those dont know whats going on hardly hear from each other times)
He hooked up with a girl and she got pregnant
with twins
and after the initial shock he got excited about them
and then the girl had a miscarriage.
So much talking goes on afterwards.. in which i tell him i dont hate him because of this. we werent together.. i could just as easily have hooked up w/ someone then and gotten pregnant myself.
i am however mad at how it was handled.. but he's all apologetic and crying
And he tells me he really does care about me and he is really excited for me to move there and he wants to know if I can come out sooner so we can spend time together
Now what?!
random_scribe:
.... head is spinning ....
bygbadwulf:
this is simply my opinion, but he should've figure that out first before even attempting seeing another girl. If he keeps this kind of stuff from you when your not dating, what will he keep from you if you are?Obviously you like him for whatever reason, so there must be SOME merit to the fellow, but BE REAL careful if you pursue this again. This could be just a one time incident or a sign of things to come with this boy. Ultimately the desicion is yours.