SCATTERED THOUGHTS...
...AND THESE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS...feeling the drift of my age take me on...
...heh! i'm 38 and already feel my half-life coming on...
...IT ALL STARTED WITH THIS FACEBOOK SHIT...where all of the sudden a bunch of your high school buddies hit you up and wanna dictate your life and how you gotta act and be...never been good at leaving comments on other peoples' pages because i feel like i'm intruding and i tend to post shit out of random that no one tends to get (just like here)...never felt like part of the clique...i was always there, but, my mind always seemed world's away from what was truly happening...i was listening to Todd Rundgren when Kurt Cobain took a stab at all the young girls' heart-aches...
...AND SO...some fifteen years later after the math: i find myself working the same entry-level position as i did in high school. Earned a BA degree that landed me no where. Became certified as a paralegal and a sound engineer later on...
...strange how i know that i can do anything i set my mind to these days...yet it all seems boring to me...
...i will rid myself of this status-quo before it hangs me high and dry...
...and nothing seems to matter much when you've learned too well to read "in between the lines"...
...after a while you just accept the madman that you are and it just becomes a game of "denial versus shame"...
...time and time again you will feel borrowed, but at least you know where you stand.
...AND THESE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS...feeling the drift of my age take me on...
...heh! i'm 38 and already feel my half-life coming on...
...IT ALL STARTED WITH THIS FACEBOOK SHIT...where all of the sudden a bunch of your high school buddies hit you up and wanna dictate your life and how you gotta act and be...never been good at leaving comments on other peoples' pages because i feel like i'm intruding and i tend to post shit out of random that no one tends to get (just like here)...never felt like part of the clique...i was always there, but, my mind always seemed world's away from what was truly happening...i was listening to Todd Rundgren when Kurt Cobain took a stab at all the young girls' heart-aches...
...AND SO...some fifteen years later after the math: i find myself working the same entry-level position as i did in high school. Earned a BA degree that landed me no where. Became certified as a paralegal and a sound engineer later on...
...strange how i know that i can do anything i set my mind to these days...yet it all seems boring to me...
...i will rid myself of this status-quo before it hangs me high and dry...
...and nothing seems to matter much when you've learned too well to read "in between the lines"...
...after a while you just accept the madman that you are and it just becomes a game of "denial versus shame"...
...time and time again you will feel borrowed, but at least you know where you stand.
tayler:
the older I get the more cynical I am and I embrace the craziness inside of me. It's what makes me unique 
tab00:
Thank you, Tayler.