MORE DRUNKEN CONFESSIONS...
...SO TODAY...I'm thinking about doing this whole 360 thing in my head whiles I'm at work...been talking to all of these people who have been everywhere, traveled around the world...some have money...a few have brains...a couple have a little luck, while others just know how to trip...
...AND SEE...there's all this shit that I been wanting to do and lots of books piled up in lazed stacks like club sandwiches and the titles seem painted purple like neon signs...don't know really what page to read, but I picked up Salinger's "Catcher in the Rye" again...still bothers me that the junk-face that shot Lennon down idolized this paperback, like Manson worshiped "Helter Skelter" and the Hell's Angels screwed up "Gimme Shelter"...
...BUT...strange thoughts interrupt my mind-scape today like the beautiful love freaks that surround me like there once were trees...and I'm thinking as I'm talking to this great girlfriend of mine at work how I so want to climb out of my window at midnight while I'm sleep walking and wind-up in some new world...
...I want to escape from all happy couples and baby commercials and anyone who acts like they have it made because eventually they all seem to fall apart and go crazy...and like, I worship this girl because we're both the same, but some days I can tell by her words: we share some of the same crazed worlds. And hopefully she'll never become a bum like me. And I feel passion, yet I feel no hope...16 candles on the b-day cake made lots of smoke and made my mother have to run more dishes...
...and as I'm not so in love these days...I'm beginning to see all these new out-looks in life, like maybe I should just sell my place and all my possessions and move to India...I'd really freaking miss my music collection...but maybe that's what's keeping me. AND...I'm so skunked to do something new that maybe I'll put my place up for sell and leave this trendy town tomorrow...
...SO TODAY...I'm thinking about doing this whole 360 thing in my head whiles I'm at work...been talking to all of these people who have been everywhere, traveled around the world...some have money...a few have brains...a couple have a little luck, while others just know how to trip...
...AND SEE...there's all this shit that I been wanting to do and lots of books piled up in lazed stacks like club sandwiches and the titles seem painted purple like neon signs...don't know really what page to read, but I picked up Salinger's "Catcher in the Rye" again...still bothers me that the junk-face that shot Lennon down idolized this paperback, like Manson worshiped "Helter Skelter" and the Hell's Angels screwed up "Gimme Shelter"...
...BUT...strange thoughts interrupt my mind-scape today like the beautiful love freaks that surround me like there once were trees...and I'm thinking as I'm talking to this great girlfriend of mine at work how I so want to climb out of my window at midnight while I'm sleep walking and wind-up in some new world...
...I want to escape from all happy couples and baby commercials and anyone who acts like they have it made because eventually they all seem to fall apart and go crazy...and like, I worship this girl because we're both the same, but some days I can tell by her words: we share some of the same crazed worlds. And hopefully she'll never become a bum like me. And I feel passion, yet I feel no hope...16 candles on the b-day cake made lots of smoke and made my mother have to run more dishes...
...and as I'm not so in love these days...I'm beginning to see all these new out-looks in life, like maybe I should just sell my place and all my possessions and move to India...I'd really freaking miss my music collection...but maybe that's what's keeping me. AND...I'm so skunked to do something new that maybe I'll put my place up for sell and leave this trendy town tomorrow...