Sunday Nov 24, 2002

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Today, 11/30 is my birthday. I'm a looser. I got invited to a party. Not my party, but a party for 3 other people who were turning either 30, or 31. I want my own party. I don't want to celebrate at someone else's party as an add-on. I want to be the king of the day.

Will you help me celebrate?

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edea:
Happy B-Day
grahf:
I read your post on Dia's board about life trying to kill us. Did someone actually say that or are you quoting Twilight of the Dark Master?

Friday Nov 22, 2002

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I got laid off two days ago.... I haven't had time to check in on the haps here at suicidegirls. Anyone got any network security jobs?
dia:
If I had one, I'd hang onto it like crazy...
You can have my awful job! smile
The one where I get up at 5 am... and then get interrupted from further sleeping a whole lot, lol.
perdurabo:
Cox cable is hiring some of those, but its in San Diego or Atlanta.................

Saturday Nov 16, 2002

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Kids are cool. I was at a friends house last night. She and a couple other friends were meeting to design a public access tv show.

I took care of the kids so that they could work. Kids are awesome. I want a kid... hmmm, since I don't have anyone to help me make one, perhaps I'll get cats instead.... :-(
perdurabo:
cats are pretty good practice for having a kid---except you can throw "them" outside when they piss you off. Someone might call CPS if you throw kids outside.

Wednesday Nov 13, 2002

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So, I may be getting a new job. Starting my own company is both really cool and unbelievalbly scary!

Also, I'm learning how to read Tarot cards. I had a dream a couple of days ago that I was shopping for tarot cards, and I was in this bookstore, looking at one. I red the inscription about the author. Noted psychologist,also wrote, ... yaddya yadda....
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Sunday Nov 10, 2002

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After a long night (though, perhaps not long enough) of somone else's girlfriend singing into my ear and rubbing her wonderful breasts against me, alas, I am home alone. Without a soft morsel of a woman to keep me warm... argh. -t.
lil_tuffy:
yer schlong sling is scaring me.

Thursday Oct 10, 2002

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I was at a bar tonight. Cosmopolitain in SF off of Spear street. The bartender was awesome. Beautiful. Would make a FANTASTIC suicide girl. Amy was her name. I started with a stella, then I asked her to make me a martini that was naughty. ahhh, a wild orchid. So nice.

The next bar I went to tonight, I caught sight of a girl flashing...
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jasiri:
feh.
badm0j02:
nice pic

Wednesday Oct 09, 2002

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No matter what happens, only I have complete say over how I choose to react to things.

There is a time and a place for being emotionally attached to outcomes. Most times, are not *the* time to be too attached. See, I have high expectations of the world and every thing and person within it. High expectations increases the potential for being pissed off. So,...
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Tuesday Oct 08, 2002

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Have you ever creaped anyone out? Have you ever been accused of creaping someone out? How did that make you feel?


dia:
Yes. I have, actually... in a few ways.
One, I wrote about on the boards, I think in the Girls section, and once in the Lifestyles section under some Punk Rock Love topic, I liked this guy, and I travelled really far to go see him, I thought for sure he liked me from how we had interacted... but when I got to where he was (he was in a band and was playing a concert)... he wouldn't much talk to me. I got annoyed and finally just said fuck it, I'm going to be forthright with this guy. So I grabbed him by the arm, and we were walking and he said I had "creepy eyes" and he brushed me off very hard, after telling me he'd love to fuck me. Then he emailed me and said I was just generally creepy... I think what he was saying was that I was very FORWARD and it freaked him out to High Heaven, you know? It felt terrible. I'd always been told I'd had this really sexy stare and all this, and here this guy I'd built up in my mind went off and said it was CREEPY (his word, ironically).

Also, I have freaked a few girls out by coming on to them after some mixed signals. Whoops. And one of them basically starting shouting I was a big lesbian (which of course, I'm not, I like boys and girls, and boy-girls, haha, I like PEOPLE, you know?)... and that just made me feel embaressed.

It's embaressing, I think, when you inadvertently freak someone out. Especially when you think you are being charming or dear or something, and they think you are just plain ooogly. So yeah, been there. Urgh.

Don't worry about it too much. Shit happens to the best of us. Consider yourself one of the best. You seem super sweet to me. I noticed you changed your "into" to things that seem to creep others out... I feel like that in general... people think my fantasies are cute and stuff, until their in bed with me, haha, and then they either cum in like 3.5 seconds flat or wind up running off in fear. Soooo, I don't talk tooooo much about my sex life... I allude to it more then talk openly about it. Plus, mystique is always a part of divahood. Hey? Ya know?? And so is some people, little people, silly people, thinking what you are into as creepy.

*hugs*

Tuesday Oct 08, 2002

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I don't want to go to sleep.

I think I have ghosts.

Or, a chubacabra in the attic.

I don't hear any footsteps, but the house creeks too much. I don't have my kitties to protect me, only fish. sigh....

Crimson and clover. over and over. What the fuck does that mean?

Buildings burn and people die, but true love is forever...

Tuesday Oct 08, 2002

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I don't want to go to sleep.

I think I have ghosts.

Or, a chubacabra in the attic.

I don't hear any footsteps, but the house creeks too much. I don't have my kitties to protect me, only fish. sigh....

Crimson and clover. over and over. What the fuck does that mean?

Buildings burn and people die, but true love is forever...
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