system

wake up

The pain stems from an unrealized ideal that I
chose to place upon her.

I am having some difficulty dealing with that.
I unconsciously find myself looking to blame
as if I was taught that it would ease something.
There is no reason there.

There is no blame, just misfortune and
poor judgement.

Slowly I am learning to trust my instincts, to not
second guess or to deny and follow what I think is
the best path at the time.