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I really appreciate all the kind words people have left me. I know I'm not alone. Nothing prepares you for this sort of thing so at times I don't know how to react. Dealing with cancer is hard enough, the fact that people around you see the devastation just makes it unbearable. For those of you who have lost someone, my regards go out to you. I may soon know how it feels but until then, I'm going to hope for the best and a miracle recovery. I'm not ready to give up and I know he isn't either.

I also did some experimenting with my camera tonight. It's a warm night following a gorgeous day. I love Spring. This is one of the best times of year. People get happy again. Seattle is beautiful in the Spring and I'm feeling better. My recovery is happening quick, starting working out again. I'll lose these winter pounds in a few weeks and be ready for summer. I've decided to put more energy into positive things and try to grow from all that has happened the last few months. Still wouldn't mind a relationship right now. This girl at work keeps torturing me. She has a boyfriend but always flirts with me. I just try to ignore it.

There are lots of beautiful women on this site. Not just the models but many of the members as well. Maybe I can find a date. I hear there's a group where people talk about dating.