sylvie

so today allison and i painted her bathroom. for those of your who don't know... it's the smallest fuckin bathroom in the world. like when you got to sot on the toilet you knees hit the wall kind of small. but i got to pick out the colors! vinilla custurd, winter wheat, and cinnamon spice. it looks totally awesome. now if only i had the gumption to paint my place.
on a not so happy note. i'm really sad. i'm so lonely, not b/c i live by myself but just b/c i'm a loser. i've been single for over a year now and it's really starting to get to me. i've never been single this long, or even half this long. but there is just somehting about someone liking you that makes you feel a little better about your self like you dont' totally suck, you know. i just dont' know what to do. i'm not over my ex b/c i'm a loser. and i dont' knwo how to meet people or even be really social b/c if i go to a bar even just to hang out i get really uncomfortable. i don't know... does anyone have any suggestions? this is so pathetic. but i'm not totally ugly and i'm not totally hopeless, i just need something.