The Rundown:
I originally became interested in suicidegirls.com (SG) because an old friend of mine, who also happens to be a fellow dairyland.com (DL) user, had mentioned that he had a journal on SG as well. I have been writing on DL for almost five years now, and when I started there it was a rather small site. I unwittingly signed up for an account under my real name, not realizing that after a while if anyone ran my name in a search engine that my DL page would show up in his/her results.
Well, as the years went by, the DL site grew, and more and more people that knew me in one way or another were running my name in search engines and finding the page. DL was also getting a lot of attention, and the number of users grew dramatically. I had people from my life getting angry about the personal thoughts I had written in my journal, random people harassing me about my views, and deleted several pages due to negative attention. I locked the site several times due to the fact that people such as my ex-boyfriends were coming to the site and searching for entries about themselves in order to start arguments with me, as well as the fact that I was embarrassed about some of the things I was writing (basically I was embarrassed by the way I was acting at the time). Also, there was a lack of community on DL. It seemed like there were a lot of people who had joined the site to strangely promote their private lives (complete with cast, as if it were a real soap series or something of the sorts), and I was even getting strange messages from other members offering to give me a free review of my page.
There are still some pages I read on DL, but I feel for various reasons that its just not the site I want to spend the majority of my time on right now, especially after finding SG. Here there is more to do that journal into what seems like empty space. I have a face, I can easily make friends and update my portion of the site with images and writing, I can read all kinds of news, I can spend hours looking at photographs of attractive, nude women, and I get the feeling that I can become part of a community. So, heres to a new beginning at SG. I hope to be writing the story of my life (with names of the innocents changed and of course, from a first person limited perspective) here for years to come.
-Sylvia (pen name)
I originally became interested in suicidegirls.com (SG) because an old friend of mine, who also happens to be a fellow dairyland.com (DL) user, had mentioned that he had a journal on SG as well. I have been writing on DL for almost five years now, and when I started there it was a rather small site. I unwittingly signed up for an account under my real name, not realizing that after a while if anyone ran my name in a search engine that my DL page would show up in his/her results.
Well, as the years went by, the DL site grew, and more and more people that knew me in one way or another were running my name in search engines and finding the page. DL was also getting a lot of attention, and the number of users grew dramatically. I had people from my life getting angry about the personal thoughts I had written in my journal, random people harassing me about my views, and deleted several pages due to negative attention. I locked the site several times due to the fact that people such as my ex-boyfriends were coming to the site and searching for entries about themselves in order to start arguments with me, as well as the fact that I was embarrassed about some of the things I was writing (basically I was embarrassed by the way I was acting at the time). Also, there was a lack of community on DL. It seemed like there were a lot of people who had joined the site to strangely promote their private lives (complete with cast, as if it were a real soap series or something of the sorts), and I was even getting strange messages from other members offering to give me a free review of my page.
There are still some pages I read on DL, but I feel for various reasons that its just not the site I want to spend the majority of my time on right now, especially after finding SG. Here there is more to do that journal into what seems like empty space. I have a face, I can easily make friends and update my portion of the site with images and writing, I can read all kinds of news, I can spend hours looking at photographs of attractive, nude women, and I get the feeling that I can become part of a community. So, heres to a new beginning at SG. I hope to be writing the story of my life (with names of the innocents changed and of course, from a first person limited perspective) here for years to come.
-Sylvia (pen name)