Its the most stressful time of the year.....
Christmas... Im so FUCKING BROKE! UGH! Then bills, good thing I saved enough money for those stupid things.
the thing that is pissing me off the most is FUCKING LEGAL AID! Its 9 days before christmas and about 2.5 weeks before my court date and they send me a reassessment in the mail. I have to go down within the next 2 days and hand them pretty much everything so they can decide weather they want to keep paying for my lawyer or not..... if they decide to discontinue my legal aid im fucked. Jan 8th is my court date... or one of them anyways Ive been at this since June and havent even seen the inside of a court to get custody of my kid! and tey decide to do my reassessment now? MY LAWYER HASNT DONE ANYTHING! she wrote a few letters to me and got douchebag served... which really means nothing at this point! FUCK I DONT WANT TO FUCKING DO THIS COURT BULLSHIT ANYMORE! I feel like just taking off with Carmen and not telling anyone where Im going and just live in peace. Theres so much shit just going through my head like what if the judge is a fucking retard and gives Dylan shared custody? Why wont he take supervised visitation? Why doesnt he want people watching him? What if hes a fucking pervert? What if he hurts her? UGH
And I just know hes going to go into court saying how I do all kinds of drugs around my kid and Im a drunk and blablabla..... I dont do drugs at all. I go out once a week to drink if that and I usually have to drive home so its limited drinking. I didnt drink or do drugs when I was pregnant because I quit when i found out like any NORMAL person would do. But oh Dylan can leave the fucking room practically right after i give birth to go smoke pot! and hes admittedly said that he would smoke pot around Carmen if he had her because he wouldnt be able to deal with her.... LIKE WHO SAYS THAT!?
IM FREAKING OUT!
ugh OK but im sure you dont care to read about my little brain explosion so here is my favorite Christmas song
I love the 2nd day of Christmas hahaha
-SydVicious
Christmas... Im so FUCKING BROKE! UGH! Then bills, good thing I saved enough money for those stupid things.
the thing that is pissing me off the most is FUCKING LEGAL AID! Its 9 days before christmas and about 2.5 weeks before my court date and they send me a reassessment in the mail. I have to go down within the next 2 days and hand them pretty much everything so they can decide weather they want to keep paying for my lawyer or not..... if they decide to discontinue my legal aid im fucked. Jan 8th is my court date... or one of them anyways Ive been at this since June and havent even seen the inside of a court to get custody of my kid! and tey decide to do my reassessment now? MY LAWYER HASNT DONE ANYTHING! she wrote a few letters to me and got douchebag served... which really means nothing at this point! FUCK I DONT WANT TO FUCKING DO THIS COURT BULLSHIT ANYMORE! I feel like just taking off with Carmen and not telling anyone where Im going and just live in peace. Theres so much shit just going through my head like what if the judge is a fucking retard and gives Dylan shared custody? Why wont he take supervised visitation? Why doesnt he want people watching him? What if hes a fucking pervert? What if he hurts her? UGH
And I just know hes going to go into court saying how I do all kinds of drugs around my kid and Im a drunk and blablabla..... I dont do drugs at all. I go out once a week to drink if that and I usually have to drive home so its limited drinking. I didnt drink or do drugs when I was pregnant because I quit when i found out like any NORMAL person would do. But oh Dylan can leave the fucking room practically right after i give birth to go smoke pot! and hes admittedly said that he would smoke pot around Carmen if he had her because he wouldnt be able to deal with her.... LIKE WHO SAYS THAT!?
IM FREAKING OUT!
ugh OK but im sure you dont care to read about my little brain explosion so here is my favorite Christmas song
I love the 2nd day of Christmas hahaha
-SydVicious
micamars:
Is his name on the birth certificate? Do you need his financial assistance? I'd have as little to do with him as possible, it sucks you have to use legal aid. Those lawyers are the worst. I hope you get to keep her, I don't know of a judge who would take an infant from their mother, especially when she doesn't have any problems. Take a deep breath, do what you have to in order to keep Carmen. I'm thinking about ya, okay. Mike
micamars:
You live in a sucky state. Most states if his name isn't on the birth certificate, you'd have to go to court to prove he is the father. I hope you get your situation fixed so you keep her. Most of the time if your not getting any money he doesn't get to see the kid at all. So if you don't need his money for support I'd not seek it and then he can't demand any visitation. Plus it sounds to me like he's the kind of guy, given another six months, and he's probably gonna just fade away. He's probably here now cause she's so young and everything but some other woman is gonna get his interest and he'll be gone. Which may not be a bad thing for Carmen.