Im am so tired and sick and pissed off!
My kid just wont stay asleep tonight and i have no idea why... Oh wait yes I do BECAUSE SHE LOVES HER GRANDMA MORE THAN ME! All it takes is for my mom to pick her up and rock her for a minute and shes out cold, if its me its like an hour of getting punched and kicked in the face and getting picked at. GUH im discouraged and slightly hurt. Naturally shell cry when I leave the room (sometimes), everytime my mom leaves the room she doesnt just cry she throws an all out fit.
Im freaking sick because bebe was sick for a few days and of course attached to me so I was getting sneezed on and drooled on, getting drooley hands shoved in my mouth and nose and ears. So now Ive got the flu, my head feels like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode.
Im pissed off because my kids sperm donor thinks he can be a better parent than me. He messages my friend and tells her that I better not fuck my kid up too bad or I wont get money... LIKE IM GETTING ANY MONEY NOW! That fucktard wouldnt know parenting if it jumped up and bit him in the face. Ive been here for 7 months watching her, making sure shes taken care of, buying her food and diapers and clothes and everything else and hes just sat on his ass being a fucking psycho and doing drugs. Like I dont know what kind of drugs hes into now but its gotta be something good because hes FUCKED UP! He prank calls my house everyday from payphones... AT 2 AM! Im so tempted to get his number and post it on the internet so he can see what it feels like to be harassed. A week ago he tried to start a drunken fight with my friend all because my friend said "hey man hows it goin".... yup thats all it took and the sperm donor blew up and wanted to kick his ass.
So now Im going to bed to watch The Food Network Challenge and try to sleep because I couldnt sleep off my hangover this morning. FUCK. And tomorrow stupid carpet cleaners are comming which means I have to leave because the only place in my house without carpeting is the kitchen and I cant entertain a 7 month old all freaking day in the kitchen.
GOODNIGHT!
My kid just wont stay asleep tonight and i have no idea why... Oh wait yes I do BECAUSE SHE LOVES HER GRANDMA MORE THAN ME! All it takes is for my mom to pick her up and rock her for a minute and shes out cold, if its me its like an hour of getting punched and kicked in the face and getting picked at. GUH im discouraged and slightly hurt. Naturally shell cry when I leave the room (sometimes), everytime my mom leaves the room she doesnt just cry she throws an all out fit.
Im freaking sick because bebe was sick for a few days and of course attached to me so I was getting sneezed on and drooled on, getting drooley hands shoved in my mouth and nose and ears. So now Ive got the flu, my head feels like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode.
Im pissed off because my kids sperm donor thinks he can be a better parent than me. He messages my friend and tells her that I better not fuck my kid up too bad or I wont get money... LIKE IM GETTING ANY MONEY NOW! That fucktard wouldnt know parenting if it jumped up and bit him in the face. Ive been here for 7 months watching her, making sure shes taken care of, buying her food and diapers and clothes and everything else and hes just sat on his ass being a fucking psycho and doing drugs. Like I dont know what kind of drugs hes into now but its gotta be something good because hes FUCKED UP! He prank calls my house everyday from payphones... AT 2 AM! Im so tempted to get his number and post it on the internet so he can see what it feels like to be harassed. A week ago he tried to start a drunken fight with my friend all because my friend said "hey man hows it goin".... yup thats all it took and the sperm donor blew up and wanted to kick his ass.
So now Im going to bed to watch The Food Network Challenge and try to sleep because I couldnt sleep off my hangover this morning. FUCK. And tomorrow stupid carpet cleaners are comming which means I have to leave because the only place in my house without carpeting is the kitchen and I cant entertain a 7 month old all freaking day in the kitchen.
GOODNIGHT!
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micamars:
Babies can sense your agitation, if your uset they will feel it. You and your mom are what she looks at for parents. As for fucktard, he sounds like a super winner. Why do women like bad boys then are surprised when they turn into total douchebags when it matters. Sorry you got involved with him. I just get frustrated being a nice guy and being passed over cause I'm not super exciting.
notsocoo:
Ya same here. My gf sometimes complains that I'm a bit boring and then I point to her useless stoner ex and she relizes its not so bad having a bf who actually works and isn't a psycho douchebag.