After this Sunday, I would like to just go to sleep until July 20th or so.
Being unemployed is driving me crazy. I have way too much time on my hands. I spend it by watching tv, pacing, not eating due to stress (which coincidentally saves me money), being on the internet way too much, and maniacally applying to jobs online. No money means no fun, especially when I have to drive far to get to any of my friends. Oh, and I cry a lot.
Niko is going to Greece tomorrow for a month. Bad timing. This is even more fucked than last years trip because at least last year I had the money to call him. This time around, I have to wait for him to call me. Keeping myself busy this time around is going to be a huge challenge.
My anxiety is pretty fucked. I wish I had some meds for that. I may need to look into that.
I've been reading books on how to be strong and stay positive. They don't seem to be having the desired effect.
So yeah. If in the next 4-6 weeks I seem really awful, you now know why.
Just pray I find a job. I seem to be in danger of losing everything right now.
-Syd
PS: I'm beginning to believe that society is cultivating a mass culture of Histrionic behavior.
Being unemployed is driving me crazy. I have way too much time on my hands. I spend it by watching tv, pacing, not eating due to stress (which coincidentally saves me money), being on the internet way too much, and maniacally applying to jobs online. No money means no fun, especially when I have to drive far to get to any of my friends. Oh, and I cry a lot.
Niko is going to Greece tomorrow for a month. Bad timing. This is even more fucked than last years trip because at least last year I had the money to call him. This time around, I have to wait for him to call me. Keeping myself busy this time around is going to be a huge challenge.
My anxiety is pretty fucked. I wish I had some meds for that. I may need to look into that.
I've been reading books on how to be strong and stay positive. They don't seem to be having the desired effect.
So yeah. If in the next 4-6 weeks I seem really awful, you now know why.
Just pray I find a job. I seem to be in danger of losing everything right now.
-Syd
PS: I'm beginning to believe that society is cultivating a mass culture of Histrionic behavior.
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skully:
morgan:
Thank you hon. As every person ever says, even if they've been through breakups before and just somehow magically forgets how it feels, I can't believe how much this hurts.