syco13

bye (for sure this time)

fuck i hate this site.

this layout sucks
and this website as a whole pretty much sucks... why am i still paying for this crap??

i've got nothing to say but it's ok.....
my head is not on straight .....

it is cold inside my body.....
my brain has become jelly.

GOD DAMN THIS NOISE INSIDE MY HEAD.

well...... um ..... hrm.

last night has pretty much messed with my head a bit.
if you were there im sure you know what im talking about.

it may have sped up the process of some other unresloved personal issues.

i swear im going to fucking kill myself if this shit doesnt end

my nightmare is now
scary creature from hell
eating the heart inside

nails in my eyes shade me from the horror

bats pecking at the holes
a dietary gore
nourishing the anger

dried blood caked around the wounds

i do not want to go to work today.... id rather bathe myself in blood and walk into a forest filled with rabid wolves.

i looked to the east, then to the south,
and noticed a world on its side.
a slight case of amneisa,
and i forgot what i was looking for.

a girl sceamed out loud,
"it hurts, it hurts."
but i chose not to help.

instead i looked in her direction,
and smiled,
for i enjoyed her suffering.

i wish i were as talented as trent reznor....

i just finished watching beside you in time.. and it brought back a lot of memories of seeing NIN live. especially the road trip my friend and i took to see them in london... good times.

tonight i learned im only happy when im sad...... and that scares me