sxe_rudeboy

We'll start with the annoying stuff. In June I fell and smashed my head and had some memory loss (see blog) not good, but could of been worse. Well, I lost my balance and fell again in July in a supermarket parking lot and hit my head again. No memory loss or hospital trip this time. Since then I have been donated a collapsible electric...
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Zack's wake was today. Some goodbyes are tougher than others. I'll miss you cuzzo. The good ones are always gone too soon. I love you Zack.

Here's a picture from back in the day when life was simple. I didn't know about this picture until today. I'm all the way to the right and that's Zack right next to me.

I don't think I've ever seen a moth this black. Absolutely gorgeous.

Today my cousin Zack passed away from his injuries caused from a motorcycle accident. He was a good kid. I'm having a hard time accepting this. I'll miss you cuz.

So, yesterday I fell backwards and hit my head on the wooden frame of the couch. I can't remember anything about the fall or the events afterward. I don't remember the ambulance or the hospital. I only remember the bandage on my arm from where they took my blood. The whole week is a blur, it all almost feels like a dream.

I forgot all...
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Coughing for two weeks, puking for a week, being sick off and on from medication changes since February. Ugh, I just want to feel better and not waste this summer in bed. This isn't the way I want to be "in bed".

I'd like to blog more but nothing satisfies me for more than a couple minutes. Depression is brutal sometimes. I need a hobby, then, again, I'll buy something and get bored of it quickly. I really need something in my life to make me want to get out of bed.

Bed. Boston in the morning for an appointment. I'm gonna ask for blood work while I'm there. I'm hoping this medication isn't causing more harm than good.

I've been on this new medication since June. The first few days as my body adjusted I felt like shit. Now it's October and I'm in the worst pain of my life. My hip and lower back are killing me when I walk. The pain when I put weight on my left leg is close unbearable. Even leaning on the bed to tie my shoe...
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