I get emotional in a very complicated way when I talk about race in USA... there is no type of white peoples that I ever met who were like me in the USA. Which is why I think I am like a Brazilian boy maybe but I am a lot like a Brazilian girl because of what kind of church I went to and the magic of my god and how I love to make girls love me and how I am both cute and bad ass. I never felt comfortable around white peoples in USA and when I was younger I was prejudiced against white people and how white Male peers are the devil. I associated with mostly black people and Hispanics all my life. My biggest fear In my 20s the people discriminate and act different around me because I thought people imagined I was scary... πΏβ€οΈ
Being accepted as normal was very complicated for me. Until I started becoming better by the power of emotional maturity... I feel more comfortable and normal around black people like at church but there is one obvious difference... πππβ€οΈπ€ Even today i have four best friends and all of my white American USA friends are only online and people tell me I am racist but the fact is in have a fetish for making white people in my country uncomfortable for many reasons about race. I have a fetish for making people who are not close and dear to me uncomfortable in general. I would make a fascinating sex worker one day... π₯°ππ₯°ππΌπ€