Im feeling kind of sick today. Freezing, sleepy, stomach-ache, headache, nausea, vertigo, all the fun-stuff! Yay! Cant eat, cant learn and cant sleep either. Sucks. 
Weekend was quite ambivalent. I had established a meeting (wasnt easy) with someone I used to call a good friend of mine, Manuel, for Friday night. We used to regularly watch anime together or play some video-games. It was always...
Read More
Weekend was quite ambivalent. I had established a meeting (wasnt easy) with someone I used to call a good friend of mine, Manuel, for Friday night. We used to regularly watch anime together or play some video-games. It was always...
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
I know that I can survive this, but Im not sure if I want to. I think its bullshit to die for some specific dream (e.g. a specific person) but thats not the point. Its all about dying because of lack of faith in a dream.
Besides, Im a very dependant person. I cant live on my own, without some basic support form others. What...
Read More
Besides, Im a very dependant person. I cant live on my own, without some basic support form others. What...
Read More
sakita:
my sister is coming up this week..she brought me stuff
from my family!!! cant wait!
a wax doll, a wax idian doll..that i bought when i was 5.
im going to give it away to my boyfriends mom, she is awed by stuff like that.
today was nice got in a bike ride before the rain began to pour, but i think swedes started celebrating the 4th of july or something..gah i thought i got away from it all!
lizbeth!
from my family!!! cant wait!
a wax doll, a wax idian doll..that i bought when i was 5.
im going to give it away to my boyfriends mom, she is awed by stuff like that.
today was nice got in a bike ride before the rain began to pour, but i think swedes started celebrating the 4th of july or something..gah i thought i got away from it all!
lizbeth!
I'm grateful for your sympathy and good wishes. But I'm not so sure if I really want to get over this, again. I did it in similar situations many times now and it always leaves me less the person I used to be. I'm now just a twisted and perverted version of my former self.
I lost all my faith in me and the world...
Read More
I lost all my faith in me and the world...
Read More
sakita:
you know that you are a fighter, and it doesnt have to take anything from you, you can take things from it. when the world comes crashing down, sometimes you have to realize that you are one you need to love. sweetie ive been there. when i read that i couldnt message right away because I have been there..and you know what? i know it hurts....
take your time but dont TAKE your time. if you catch my drift.
it is not worth dying for a dream, because i've learned from experience dreams are often flawed and not what i wanted in the first place.
classic tragedies be damned.
i dont like tragedies.
and im still here any time you need someone to talk to.
take care for pete's sakes.
lizbeth
take your time but dont TAKE your time. if you catch my drift.
it is not worth dying for a dream, because i've learned from experience dreams are often flawed and not what i wanted in the first place.
classic tragedies be damned.
i dont like tragedies.
and im still here any time you need someone to talk to.
take care for pete's sakes.
lizbeth
I need a girlfriend. I look around and see couples in love. I spend time with Daniela and I hear her talk about how deeply in love she is. I can't take it anymore. But I can't escape it. Surly I can't escape Daniela. I need her. The only time I didn't feel like I'd rather be dead was the time I spent with her....
Read More
Read More
evillyn:
Awww, cheer up doll. I know how you feel. And it sucks.
sakita:
oh sweetie!!!
im so sorry but i luv ya so thats something aint it?
*gives flowers to ya
*gives hugs to ya
i know that it stinks but you know you'll conquer this!!!
take care
hugs!!!
im so sorry but i luv ya so thats something aint it?
*gives flowers to ya
*gives hugs to ya
i know that it stinks but you know you'll conquer this!!!
take care
hugs!!!
So, I probably have to explain something:
I wont use any violence against anyone (besides me). Im pacifist to the bone and believe in absolute personal freedom. I think that even if this someone (who now officially is Danielas boyfriend) breaks her heart it would be a matter between those two. I wouldnt have any right to interfere.
Nevertheless I would be so mad that...
Read More
I wont use any violence against anyone (besides me). Im pacifist to the bone and believe in absolute personal freedom. I think that even if this someone (who now officially is Danielas boyfriend) breaks her heart it would be a matter between those two. I wouldnt have any right to interfere.
Nevertheless I would be so mad that...
Read More
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
rumpusparable:
howdy! 
good to be back, good to be back....
glad to hear you liked Stranger!
and hugs on the "current status"
good to be back, good to be back....
glad to hear you liked Stranger!
and hugs on the "current status"
sakita:
now im not confuseled any more. oh dear 
i know its so hard to let go but sometimes emptiness melts away into opportunity, goodness, love, friendship. scratch that, reverse it.. friendship, love, more..etc.
when my previous boy dumped me..(yeah can you believe it..he dumped me!?!) i was so sad..and i was empty. i can understand that feeling, and i wont say anything like what i heard.
im always here if you need to talk...email me if ya wanna.
take care and hugs and warmth and sunshiney love.
ellie!
i know its so hard to let go but sometimes emptiness melts away into opportunity, goodness, love, friendship. scratch that, reverse it.. friendship, love, more..etc.
when my previous boy dumped me..(yeah can you believe it..he dumped me!?!) i was so sad..and i was empty. i can understand that feeling, and i wont say anything like what i heard.
im always here if you need to talk...email me if ya wanna.
take care and hugs and warmth and sunshiney love.
ellie!
Just a little amendment to what I said before:
First about breaking someone's neck. I just found out that this certain someone weighs 90 lbs. more than me, all muscles! So, I think that would be a bad idea. Ill try anyway, if I have to. Lets hope theyll be happy together!
Second point: Forever yours (see below) is still what I feel for Daniela....
Read More
First about breaking someone's neck. I just found out that this certain someone weighs 90 lbs. more than me, all muscles! So, I think that would be a bad idea. Ill try anyway, if I have to. Lets hope theyll be happy together!
Second point: Forever yours (see below) is still what I feel for Daniela....
Read More
sakita:
im so confused right now..
dont break any ones neck!! never resort to violence.
always save some feelings..i mean i do..i have feelings in my heart for my first boyfriend who was a complete schmuck i should tell you about him sometime.
but i still have a softness for him.
and sometimes what youre looking for is right in front of your face.
good luck sweetie!
dont break any ones neck!! never resort to violence.
always save some feelings..i mean i do..i have feelings in my heart for my first boyfriend who was a complete schmuck i should tell you about him sometime.
but i still have a softness for him.
and sometimes what youre looking for is right in front of your face.
good luck sweetie!
My weekend
-Es kommt immer alles anders als man denkt.-
Friday night, I invited two close friends of mine over to my place. We had a good and long conversation on different issues (from music and the Goth-scene to mental health). With that there was some whine and beer and little snacks like nachos etc.
Daniela, though absent, is nonetheless off most important influence on...
Read More
-Es kommt immer alles anders als man denkt.-
Friday night, I invited two close friends of mine over to my place. We had a good and long conversation on different issues (from music and the Goth-scene to mental health). With that there was some whine and beer and little snacks like nachos etc.
Daniela, though absent, is nonetheless off most important influence on...
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
alisa:
can't stay and read whole entry yet...working but you're a friend of ellie's(sakita) so your a friend of mine
check back later
xxx
check back later
xxx
sakita:
woohooo that IS progress!!! yay!
i meant true..but.didnt know for sure which one it was..
riktig means right in swedish...so...i just figured....hehehe
oh my head aches.....did you know?
im translating a letter for my mom, shes working on family stuff, and we had family from switzerland apparently..and she wrote a letter to someone and my mom wants me to translate it..
gah..its old..its german.. its bugging my head..even my glasses dont help me..HEAD THROBBING...and eyes must be poked out.
have fun studying.!!!
(((((hugs)))))
and oh yeah my brain needs to be stimulated...
must start up brain....
vrrrrroooom
i meant true..but.didnt know for sure which one it was..
riktig means right in swedish...so...i just figured....hehehe
oh my head aches.....did you know?
im translating a letter for my mom, shes working on family stuff, and we had family from switzerland apparently..and she wrote a letter to someone and my mom wants me to translate it..
gah..its old..its german.. its bugging my head..even my glasses dont help me..HEAD THROBBING...and eyes must be poked out.
have fun studying.!!!
(((((hugs)))))
and oh yeah my brain needs to be stimulated...
must start up brain....
vrrrrroooom
I just can't concentrate. Learning sucks. 
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
polly:
concentration is yeah. i couldnt do it at all right now.
xoxo
xoxo
sadie:
i hate learning
i like to read and educate myself sometimes but i hate going to school or any type of school
i like to read and educate myself sometimes but i hate going to school or any type of school
I can't say it to her, so I say it here; I can't find the right words, so I borrow them from Nightwish:
Forever Yours
Fare thee well, little broken heart
Downcast eyes, lifetime loneliness
Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone
Constant longing for the perfect soul
Unwashed scenery forever gone
No love left in me
No eyes to see the heaven...
Read More
Forever Yours
Fare thee well, little broken heart
Downcast eyes, lifetime loneliness
Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone
Constant longing for the perfect soul
Unwashed scenery forever gone
No love left in me
No eyes to see the heaven...
Read More
No parties for me this weekend. No money, no company, no fun.
My best buddies are not in town, one to some family-reunion in Frankfurt and the other one to some researchers-meeting. The best girl in this universe since Joan of Arc meets with a co-worker on Friday and with her new boyfriend (who unfortunately is not me) on Saturday.
I'll try and do some...
Read More
My best buddies are not in town, one to some family-reunion in Frankfurt and the other one to some researchers-meeting. The best girl in this universe since Joan of Arc meets with a co-worker on Friday and with her new boyfriend (who unfortunately is not me) on Saturday.
I'll try and do some...
Read More
feel better soon
sends chicken soup and a box of tissues..
A friend of mine has the coolest 50's hornrim glasses! Get some vintage ones, I think they'd look really good on you and suit your look.