swen

Today I'm being visited by two old friends of mine: sorrow and despair. They came totally uninvited; when I woke up this morning, they were already there. I hope they don't stay so long...

swen

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bombshellbetty:

I'm not asking _you_ for money, sweetheart, just the universe in general. Thanks for the good wishes, though.

Nov 12, 2003

sakita:

how is things?
how was your visit?
how is the job?
how are you?

im sucky
things are sucky
no visits to speak of
school is sucky
i is still sucky

Nov 15, 2003

Too much work to even think about a serious update. I had a great weekend, halloween (see my pics) was great (though I drank too much).

Work is very stressfull these days and 11h a day is much too long for me. I need a break! Well, I probably have to get through it. 14 months till I can finally move on to the next...
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bombshellbetty:

Haven't been around much lately. Just wanted to say hi. *smooch*

Nov 6, 2003

trinityy:

i was down to 2 a day now i am not

but i have only had three today i don't know if its b/c i sleep most the day or just b/c i wantto quit =/
hehe

trya nd relax don't stress out too much over work!
much love
trin
xoxo

Nov 8, 2003

Today just this:

Life is GOOD!

Much love and peace and happieness,
swen

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alisa:

keep up the good work.

long time no post i know but ask ellie i've been even too busy to keep up with her as much as i want. but i'm glad to come over here and read that. and itwas just written yesterday.

what's your plans for halloween?
if you don't mind me asking.
talk to you later
xxx

Oct 26, 2003

sakita:

yay!
finally!
i like hearing that life is good!
my life is crap...study study study
i failed my second test by .5 points
.5 fricking points you think they would help me out there.

much love!!!!

Nov 2, 2003

So, I'm kind of semi-back. I probably won't be able to read and comment on journals as much as I'd love to. I'm very stressed and busy with my new "job". It's just three days now but I hate it already! I'll never be a surgeon, I swear!

Well, all other issues and problems once again stand back behind this new nuisance. So I'm just...
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trinityy:

love you babe, like i always say, i am here for you no matter what...

much love
trin
xoxo

Oct 22, 2003

sakita:

wow i have missed so much!
you started a job?
i feel out in the cold, because i havent been on line at all recently...school...you know.

well i miss ya and your journals... and you know just like trinity im here for ya too if you need it.

take care sweetie!

Oct 24, 2003

Sorry everyone for not commenting lately. Im awfully busy. So much good and very confusing has happened. I feel like I need to take a long break (like some weeks or so) and contemplate about what all this means. I need to update my self-image. What I feel and do does not fit the old one anymore. I feel so weird. Its like I live...
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chimpsky:

Do what you have to do. We'll eagerly await your return.

Oct 12, 2003

sakita:

completely understand.
will be waiting here with open arms awaiting your return
will miss ya of course but still
gotta grow and live and be happy

much love

Oct 18, 2003

In consideration of a certain, quite personal anniversary, only a very short update:

Today is my birthday!!!

All about this and some hot news on the events of last weekend will be presented soon on this program.

Stay tuned!
swen

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deadish:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Im so sorry its late but 'mwah!' cake day kiss!

have a monkey

. I put a couple of new pics up btw. Hope u had a good day

Oct 9, 2003

sakita:

OH MY GOD!!!
IM SO SORRY I MISSED IT
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY.

im gonna go cry that i missed my friends bday.

but i hope you had a great day!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
GRATTIS P EFTERSKOTT.
(happy birthday belated.)

ohhhhhhhhhhh

there i think that shows how i feel.

Oct 9, 2003

Well, time for an update I think...

I've been awfully lazy lately. I just don't want to do anything. I just eat (a lot, really, I swear!), sleep and read or surf the internet or play "Operation Flashpoint".

I really should begin to work on that scientific paper I need to get my "Doktor"-title but I just lack all initiative. So I keep laying low...
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deadish:

you do flatter me mr Swen! thanks for another lovely comment! Everyone goes through episodes like you describe, I am also going through one...Im not very happy at all at the moment

nothing I can do at the moment but wait for it to turn. pants. anyway...feel better!

Oct 5, 2003

bombshellbetty:

People say mean things to you when you walk down the street? I don't get it. It's so easy to say something nice and brighten someone's day, why would people toss out rude remarks? Compliments from strangers are good though.

Hope you're doing well, sweetie.

Oct 6, 2003

Everyone keeps telling me I should forget about all the "friends" who keep letting me down. I just can't do that. I would end up with no one at all. I don't want to be the lonely deserted puppy at the truck-stop ever again. I've been lonely too much in my life already...

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bombshellbetty:

I'm the same way about not resting, and that's the problem. I go and go and go and ignore all the warning signs and then *bang* I crash and burn.

So now I rest. Boring boring boring...

Sep 27, 2003

brokenalice:

I'm in the same predicament... or at least I was until I gave up.

Sep 27, 2003

Sometimes I see things so clearly, I scare myself to death.

No dreams, no illusions, no false hopes.

Things are going really well these days, today was just great. I love my close friends. I met my two bestest friends today and I know I was important to them. I was really helpful. That fills me with joy.

But tonight is one of these nights...
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chimpsky:

Uh-oh, there's a new worm named after you!! What've you been up to in your spare time?

(I know, I know, _what_ spare time...)

Sep 22, 2003

deadish:

hello, sorry i havent commented in a while! yay for passing your exam! Im so happy for you! hey if people are important to u and u are important to them it will take a lifetime before u dont mean a shit to them

Sep 22, 2003

So, as I said earlier: I passed that stupid exam! Yay for me!!!

About the other story involving a girl: she promised to be there when the test was over. She wasn't. She called me on my cellular though, saying that she got caught up with something and would meet with me later that evening. I informed her where we were going to be but...
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pihka:

I told you so.

And if I didnt, well, I should have. See? Life CAN be good.

Sep 19, 2003

sakita:

forget that girl
shes not worth it.
but if i said i would show up i would show up!
youre such a sweetie and cool
so her loss not yours.

have fun at your parents
or did you have fun at your parents?

Sep 19, 2003

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sakita:

yay you
i knew you could do it!
so are you a doctor now
herr dokter!
herr doktor!

yayayayayayayaa
(hugs)

Sep 16, 2003

nevilthedogboy:

from the prior comment, i figure you passed the test... but how'd it go with the chickie?

Sep 16, 2003

I did it! I DID IT! I DID IT!

Now I'm back in life!

Thanks to everyone for your good wishes and for thinking of me. You're the greatest!

swen

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