sweetnepenthe

it's rant time. becaue i'm in the hospital and i feel like being a bitch....
as much as i appreciate my alone time, reading quietly or watching a movie, it is really nice to have some company. or at least know that my family is thinking of me while i'm here. not a single call, email, nothing. my mom and dad live half an hour away, and they both came for a visit yesterday. so that was nice. but my mom said she called all my family and let them know i was in the hospital again. but it's been over 3 days and i still haven't heard from any of them.... or any of my friends for that matter. (not counting online ones.)
is the fact that i'm hospitalized so frequestly a good enough excuse not to call? i mean i'm not asking for flowers or balloons or any of that crap most people get when they get stuck in the hspital. sure it'd be a sweet gesture, but i mean a freaking phone call is all i ask for. i can't make outgoing calls unless they are local, and i don't know anyone with a local number. so i just have to wait til someone calls my room phone. which.. happened like..... twice. and it was my mom both times.
i am being completely selfish, i know... i just kind of feel like my family and friends have given up on me because i'm sick so much. they just get tired of calling and stuff.
and after all of this... i realize that i don't blame them... i probably wouldn't call either.

meh....




oh, in other news... my blood tests have been coming back and the results don't look good, and so if it gets any worse i might need to do some more serious tests. if it gets any better, i should be outta here in a day or two.