Saturday Jan 05, 2008

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Last night I realized that I chose the wrong career. The wrong school, the wrong degree, the wrong everything.
All of this, 27 days before I graduate. This is a most disturbing wake up call.
If I wasn't so addicted to SG chat, I'd leave the site for a bit. Actually, I'd probably not go online for quite a while. I haven't gone to work the past three days. I realized everything I've been working for does nothing but satisfy my selfishness. I also realized that no matter how much I care for someone, I'm just not meant to be one of those people in love. I can't even make one fucking person realize their importance to me. If I can't do that, I surely can't love.
A man is called selfish, not for pursuing his own good, but for neglecting his neighbor's.
In other news, it's been... a few months (maybe two?) since I did any drugs. Usually times like this make me fall back in to old habits. I don't think I'm that stupid anymore though. Knock on wood.
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theinsomniac:
Think of it this way, you'll have a degree at 19. That's when most people are just STARTING their collegiate careers. There is plenty of time to go back and get another one in another field.
xjwigluszx:
I definitely wish I could leave the site at times, but every time I keep coming back and I don't know why. But I understand the chat thing, I got hooked on that when I was sent away for work and was 1300 miles from all my friends, it got me through sitting bored in a hotel.

Sorry about all the other stuff. Sometimes when you evaulate things it can be hard for yourself, I have been there before. Best I can say is stay strong avoid the other temptations, you will feel better about it later I'm sure.

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