at the beginning of the month i started a new diet. and i've been exercising as much as my body lets me every day. it's been a little rough because i've just been weak as shit lately. but i'm hoping after a few weeks i will start to see some results. it's bad enough feeling like crap all the time. i don't want to look like crap too! i don't mean this in an OMG-i-look-hideous kind of way. i just want to look healthy and fit. and if i ever get enough time to do a set, i want to make sure that i look a little more in shape and healthy than i do right now.
i want to join a gym but money is a little scarce with my next semester coming up at the end of the month. so i'm settling with going for walks everyday and working out in my living room. (which can get frustrating with Spoox trying to jump at me every chance he gets!) it's incredibly difficult to eat healthy, especially living on my own and not having someone there to remind me not to pig out everyday.
my moods have been CRAZY, for many reasons. I've just been so unbelievably busy this month. I try to find as much time as possible to sit back and meditate and just.. think.... not about work, or school, or my health, or money, the growing number of road kill between here and milwaukee, why my external hard drive is acting up, why i haven't found a decent republican to debate with, the price of gas, or anything like that. just think about things in general. it's hard to explain, but i just love to think.
so this next month (or two) i will be doing A LOT in the hopes of bettering myself physically. I believe that I have already bettered myself mentally and spiritually (not religiously. for fuck's sake i'm not religious), and so my bodily self is the next thing that needs work. I'm not exactly healthy enough to be as aggressive with this as I would like, but I am doing all I can! the support of my friends is really helpful too. I know so many people have been there for me when I was depressed, when i was in and out of the hospital for the last three years, and frustrated with so many things. It would mean so much to me to have everyone behind me and cheering me on! it definitely makes things a little easier to handle.
I hope everyone is having a great weekend! the weather is PERFECT here. if i wasn't working all weekend i'd be spending every waking moment outside reading. (or playing my piano if i could get it outside! hehe)
*side note* it's been almost exactly a year since I have moved to madison to start a life on my own, away from my family and from my old friends. I love this town, I love the people, the atmosphere, the freedom, the die-hard liberals!, just..everything. And I knew from the get go that I would fall out of touch with everyone from high school. I have honestly only kept two or three of my old friends. And I rarely talk to them. As much as I would love to be more in touch with them, I know that if we are still great friends now, we will continue to be, even if we don't keep in as much contact as we used to. just the fact that i've stayed close to them after a year of separation is enough to convince me that they are in my life for a reason, and a few hundred (or thousand) miles won't change that! LustEye i love you!
i want to join a gym but money is a little scarce with my next semester coming up at the end of the month. so i'm settling with going for walks everyday and working out in my living room. (which can get frustrating with Spoox trying to jump at me every chance he gets!) it's incredibly difficult to eat healthy, especially living on my own and not having someone there to remind me not to pig out everyday.
my moods have been CRAZY, for many reasons. I've just been so unbelievably busy this month. I try to find as much time as possible to sit back and meditate and just.. think.... not about work, or school, or my health, or money, the growing number of road kill between here and milwaukee, why my external hard drive is acting up, why i haven't found a decent republican to debate with, the price of gas, or anything like that. just think about things in general. it's hard to explain, but i just love to think.
so this next month (or two) i will be doing A LOT in the hopes of bettering myself physically. I believe that I have already bettered myself mentally and spiritually (not religiously. for fuck's sake i'm not religious), and so my bodily self is the next thing that needs work. I'm not exactly healthy enough to be as aggressive with this as I would like, but I am doing all I can! the support of my friends is really helpful too. I know so many people have been there for me when I was depressed, when i was in and out of the hospital for the last three years, and frustrated with so many things. It would mean so much to me to have everyone behind me and cheering me on! it definitely makes things a little easier to handle.
I hope everyone is having a great weekend! the weather is PERFECT here. if i wasn't working all weekend i'd be spending every waking moment outside reading. (or playing my piano if i could get it outside! hehe)
*side note* it's been almost exactly a year since I have moved to madison to start a life on my own, away from my family and from my old friends. I love this town, I love the people, the atmosphere, the freedom, the die-hard liberals!, just..everything. And I knew from the get go that I would fall out of touch with everyone from high school. I have honestly only kept two or three of my old friends. And I rarely talk to them. As much as I would love to be more in touch with them, I know that if we are still great friends now, we will continue to be, even if we don't keep in as much contact as we used to. just the fact that i've stayed close to them after a year of separation is enough to convince me that they are in my life for a reason, and a few hundred (or thousand) miles won't change that! LustEye i love you!
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My best friend ever lives 500 miles from me. He is the only friend I have left from Sacramento, where I used to live. I've lived down here for five years and he is as much my best friend now as he ever was. I keep trying to get him to move down here, not seriously because I am not selfish enough to pull him away from all his friends up there, but he knows it's always an option.