sometimes all i want is someone to cuddle with on a lonely night..
my grandpa is in the hospital. (long story). and to make matters worse, my cousin is also in the hospital after a serious motocross accident that bruised his brain and caused numerous broken bones, etc. he is recovering, and is moving out of the ICU soon, hopefully. I am not sure how my grandpa is doing, he was just brought to the hospital yesterday. I live too far away to be able to visit my grandpa and my cousin, and i feel unbelievably guilty because of it. i am THE ONLY ONE who hasn't gone to see my cousin. i worry that my family is holding that against me... but with working as much as i do, and going to school as well, i just cannot find the time to drive 3 hours to be with my family for just one day.
top this with the stress of school, work, my health (it's been TOO long since my last treatment, and i have no idea how i am going to be able to go to the hospital for my next treatment), finances, and just... living alone...., it's all just a little too hard to handle sometimes
if ever there was i time i could use a comforting cuddle, a kiss on the cheek, a warm body to sleep next to, a caring person who can look me in the eyes and smile, well, it's now.
i know i said that i wouldn't be dating for a while after 3 years of DISASTERS, i'm not sure i can go much longer without having someone there just in case i go crazy.
things are getting complicated with the "fuck buddy" friend (i hate that term) and i'm not sure how long we are gonna last as friends before it blows up in our faces....
and i'm hardcore crushing on someone that doesn't even live in the same country as me! go fucking figure....
i need a bubble bath. but, alas! i must get back to work.
love you all
xoxxo
~Amanda Nichelle~
p.s. i REALLY appreciate everyone who was online last night chatting and made me smile after i got news of my grandpa. you have no idea how nice it is to have you all being so kind to me!
my grandpa is in the hospital. (long story). and to make matters worse, my cousin is also in the hospital after a serious motocross accident that bruised his brain and caused numerous broken bones, etc. he is recovering, and is moving out of the ICU soon, hopefully. I am not sure how my grandpa is doing, he was just brought to the hospital yesterday. I live too far away to be able to visit my grandpa and my cousin, and i feel unbelievably guilty because of it. i am THE ONLY ONE who hasn't gone to see my cousin. i worry that my family is holding that against me... but with working as much as i do, and going to school as well, i just cannot find the time to drive 3 hours to be with my family for just one day.
top this with the stress of school, work, my health (it's been TOO long since my last treatment, and i have no idea how i am going to be able to go to the hospital for my next treatment), finances, and just... living alone...., it's all just a little too hard to handle sometimes
if ever there was i time i could use a comforting cuddle, a kiss on the cheek, a warm body to sleep next to, a caring person who can look me in the eyes and smile, well, it's now.i know i said that i wouldn't be dating for a while after 3 years of DISASTERS, i'm not sure i can go much longer without having someone there just in case i go crazy.
things are getting complicated with the "fuck buddy" friend (i hate that term) and i'm not sure how long we are gonna last as friends before it blows up in our faces....
and i'm hardcore crushing on someone that doesn't even live in the same country as me! go fucking figure....
i need a bubble bath. but, alas! i must get back to work.
love you all
xoxxo
~Amanda Nichelle~
p.s. i REALLY appreciate everyone who was online last night chatting and made me smile after i got news of my grandpa. you have no idea how nice it is to have you all being so kind to me!
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the_boss:
My cat so pwns yours so deal with it! God! Stop perving my cat!
dionysious:
hmm Do you think you have something that will soothe my throat?