sweetiyvie

Update:::: Where did all my friends go!? Is this a joke you guys? What did I do?! My page is taunting me. It says "You have no friends. Ha ha."
Whatever I did I'm sorry! Please take me back, I <3 my friends!!






Damn thats a long ways to go, isn't it.
Though my belly is showing now...
People I used to know stare at me funny.
All is well here...at least between the man and I..
Other things are just shit for the most part.
Some things are the worst they have ever been.
I try not to stress too much, it's the last thing I need to be doing, BUT...
I can't help it.
I wish I would just unload it here and get it off my chest
but it's not coming easily.
I never know what is my right to share
when other people are involved.
Even though it is just as much my battle as it is theirs.
Feh. Etiquette has never really been my forte..
I don't even think I spelled it right.
Ah well, let's give this a try shall we? Excuse the vagueness...

I refused to drop her off at her dealer last weekend
She broke my house phone on my arm
It's stilll sore as fuck and bruised.

He just shipped back home from Ohio,
been in a methanphetamine psychosis for 2 weeks
Girlfriend of 5 months carries his baby inside
we will never see him/her.....my neice/nephew.

Last night
She nods off on my couch, belly round
Making a TAR BABY TAR BABY...
Lying to me
Like I don't notice she is relapsed
Opiates snuff her concience.
I want to bitch slap her
Cuss her out
Drag her out by the hair
She tells me she met someone
He just got out of jail.....he is in a treatment program.
She wants to call him and hook up.
What the FUCK
I tell her I can't take it anymore.
"They" will take away her baby
Wait and see.

Well that didn't help one bit,unfortunately.
Have you ever "HAD" to be there for someone
when the only thing you wanted to do is get as far away
as physically and emotionally possible from said person?
I love her to death and I won't let her slip away
But... FUCKING HELL, I can't do this anymore!!