only five days until i move. oh the excitement. i can't wait to sleep in a bed again, my neck is pretty screwed.
i'm also looking forward to the cats.
was planning on having a moving in drink get together but half of them decided to leave town even though i have been talking about it for three months. how am i supposed to react...
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i'm also looking forward to the cats.
was planning on having a moving in drink get together but half of them decided to leave town even though i have been talking about it for three months. how am i supposed to react...
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i'm panicking again. for a while i felt brilliantly clear minded and in control but now it's all back to normal and it sucks. i'm off sex 'cause i always sleep with the wrong people and i'm tired of fucking things up. i wish i had someone that could hug me and take me out for dinner but i guess i'm gonna have to get...
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realistic67:
Ah... your 23...youth is wasted on the young....
Having sex with the wrong people, and cocking things up ( sorry....couldn't avoid using that last bit.... it works so well here ) is part of finding your way. If you in your 40's and still doing that. Then it's a major issue. At least your starting to think. " Hey, there's better things out here than going to shows and clubs and randomly hooking up with the next ,sexy,skinny, bad boy, musician/actor/bartender/DJ with : cool Tattoos/ Peircings/ and or Hair. When I already have a fantastic lad who's busy working. Or great girl friends who really want this sexy bad boy, and me screwing him is going to destroy friendships."
that's a start... You could do some good things for you. make friends, travel, write, work on something you always wanted ( Quit Smoking perhaps ) Be a better you and in turn, meet better people.
Just don't obssess about the past...(Unless you've been really awful to some great guy and it involved cheating... write them a heartfelt apology) It paints you into a corner when you should be looking to the future.
And guilt makes you age way to fast....
Having sex with the wrong people, and cocking things up ( sorry....couldn't avoid using that last bit.... it works so well here ) is part of finding your way. If you in your 40's and still doing that. Then it's a major issue. At least your starting to think. " Hey, there's better things out here than going to shows and clubs and randomly hooking up with the next ,sexy,skinny, bad boy, musician/actor/bartender/DJ with : cool Tattoos/ Peircings/ and or Hair. When I already have a fantastic lad who's busy working. Or great girl friends who really want this sexy bad boy, and me screwing him is going to destroy friendships."
that's a start... You could do some good things for you. make friends, travel, write, work on something you always wanted ( Quit Smoking perhaps ) Be a better you and in turn, meet better people.
Just don't obssess about the past...(Unless you've been really awful to some great guy and it involved cheating... write them a heartfelt apology) It paints you into a corner when you should be looking to the future.
And guilt makes you age way to fast....
silveronthetree:
Hats off for being positive.
Normal shouldn`t be out of control. Its a habit you`re used to, if you work with it you can move on, which is what you are doing
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Saw your prose and liked it enough to come here.
Try not sleeping with anyone and see where that leads in terms of dates. Apply the 1 or 2 month rule. If he really likes you he`ll wait. If not he`ll be gone. And there is plenty you can do without having sex.
keep well
Normal shouldn`t be out of control. Its a habit you`re used to, if you work with it you can move on, which is what you are doing
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Saw your prose and liked it enough to come here.
Try not sleeping with anyone and see where that leads in terms of dates. Apply the 1 or 2 month rule. If he really likes you he`ll wait. If not he`ll be gone. And there is plenty you can do without having sex.
keep well
so the celibacy bit didn't last for very long. i'm giving it another go.
- i've started enjoying dancing when i go out. i look like a twat but i don't really care 'cause it's just nice to get rid of some energy for once.
- things are back to normal with the ex. we're getting on really well at the moment.
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- i've started enjoying dancing when i go out. i look like a twat but i don't really care 'cause it's just nice to get rid of some energy for once.
- things are back to normal with the ex. we're getting on really well at the moment.
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nightgoat:
Isn't half the fun of dancing the looking like a twat bit?
nightgoat:
Cheers... Dare I say it depends on how drunk you are as well?
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light_bringer:
You're doing a fine job with that beer! 
wailingfungus:
celibacy can be cool but only if you've got a choice in it
Pints are the way to drink
Pints are the way to drink
i know it's a crap video but this is the most powerful piece of art i have seen in a really long time:
i can't actually link it to a proper video though, so here's the link.
it's by douglas gordon and i find it utterly fascinating how the injured soldier has been stripped of his humanity.
nothing's really going on but it's still...
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i can't actually link it to a proper video though, so here's the link.
it's by douglas gordon and i find it utterly fascinating how the injured soldier has been stripped of his humanity.
nothing's really going on but it's still...
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arwen11:
Work is actually going really well, yes. The people are so nice. Shockingly nice, actually. And I have a buttload in common with a lot of them. And not just bookselling!
Yes the man is still a nutter. He loves me, but doesn't want to rush things, this is what he says - he had a bit of a weirdoff the other night, and started texting, telling me he doesn't want to move too fast, blah blah blah - honestly, I think he's telling HIMSELF these things, because I know this about him already, so I haven't said anything! No pushing, no making plans for the future (he makes enough!), no asking about our relationship etc, I've honestly been perfectly chilled lol. So I can only assume he's telling me, telling himself, if you know what I mean. Cuz he, is a mental. Oh well! He's coming up next weekend, he's got another job thing in London, and we're going to celebrate my birthday. He said, dinner at Mr. Kongs, and a movie or show. See this "or show" thing is really nice lol, because he hates anything like that. So I told him to think about it, because I don't want to go and see something I love with a sourpuss at my side
I agree, British men are mental. And high-maintenance. How's things with your mental ex?
Alas, my plans included working, doing an essay, and cursing my dickhead friends. You?
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Yes the man is still a nutter. He loves me, but doesn't want to rush things, this is what he says - he had a bit of a weirdoff the other night, and started texting, telling me he doesn't want to move too fast, blah blah blah - honestly, I think he's telling HIMSELF these things, because I know this about him already, so I haven't said anything! No pushing, no making plans for the future (he makes enough!), no asking about our relationship etc, I've honestly been perfectly chilled lol. So I can only assume he's telling me, telling himself, if you know what I mean. Cuz he, is a mental. Oh well! He's coming up next weekend, he's got another job thing in London, and we're going to celebrate my birthday. He said, dinner at Mr. Kongs, and a movie or show. See this "or show" thing is really nice lol, because he hates anything like that. So I told him to think about it, because I don't want to go and see something I love with a sourpuss at my side
I agree, British men are mental. And high-maintenance. How's things with your mental ex?
Alas, my plans included working, doing an essay, and cursing my dickhead friends. You?
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arwen11:
Thank you!!!
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i got chucked out of my flat last night and i want tacos.
tried to post a youtube video of jeff dunham and peanut but it wouldn't work. funny shit though.
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light_bringer:
Cheers to you as well, mate. (I'm learning your lingo...LOL).
I'm glad to hear that you're moving out. It's the best thing for you. You have your whole life ahead of you.
I'm glad to hear that you're moving out. It's the best thing for you. You have your whole life ahead of you.
light_bringer:
Your upcoming living situation sounds awesome! I'm very happy for you. Haha, the two cats are certainly an added bonus. Cats rule! I hope you're having a good Sunday.
i feel so rough. i need to go on a proper detox.
light_bringer:
That sounds like a good plan.
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light_bringer:
I like the way you talk.
mark_plus_beer:
it would be odd if his real name was anus though
i give up and i feel fucking stupid and i'm so tired i can't stop shaking but if i stop moving i think i might fall apart.
does anyone know what happens if you move out before your lease is up? is it just the deposit you loose or will they charge you for the rent still?
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does anyone know what happens if you move out before your lease is up? is it just the deposit you loose or will they charge you for the rent still?
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easytiger:
I go with that too.. Depends what type of lease it is.
Check this link or look up shorthold assured tenancy for tips, thats the default tenancy in the uk.
http://www.direct.gov.uk/en/HomeAndCommunity/BuyingAndSellingYourHome/RentingAHome/DG_4001366
But you need to be takin care and not be so hard on yourself. Go easy, have a hot bath, cocoa and treat yourself to something that makes you feel good. take best care
Check this link or look up shorthold assured tenancy for tips, thats the default tenancy in the uk.
http://www.direct.gov.uk/en/HomeAndCommunity/BuyingAndSellingYourHome/RentingAHome/DG_4001366
But you need to be takin care and not be so hard on yourself. Go easy, have a hot bath, cocoa and treat yourself to something that makes you feel good. take best care
shiro:
awww thank you
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i'm hungover, bored and smelly. and i saw chopper last night for about two seconds, he looked fucking hot, kissed me on the cheek and gave me my bracelets back. and then he left without saying anything. what's up with that?
went to a club on friday, got lost whilst trying to find the toilets, bumped in to someone i sort of know, got wasted...
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light_bringer:
How is your weekend going so far? Mine is rather uneventful, but that's okay.
arwen11:
Gave your bracelets back? I hope you're planning to happy slap him or something, unless the text message was from him?
Work is good! I got the job in Waterstones, and it's been pretty good. The people are mostly really nice, it's pretty well paid, I love working with books lol, I keep seeing things I want or that I want to buy for other people.
Things are alright really, still very up and down with the man. He came for the weekend and it was great, like before, amazing. I love being with him so much, and when we're together he seems to really love being with me. And then comes the down, when he gets his depressed days etc. At the moment I'm taking those days in my stride, you could say, just talking to him etc, and then he's a lot better the next day. Meh. He has a job interview in London on Thurday, so he's coming here Wednesday, then staying as long as he can. He's even been talking about us living together next year, looking for places in Wycombe to buy so he can commute if he gets the job. This all seems so positive, but then he goes off on his little badness cycle. Good grief, how'd I fall for a complete head mental? Tut! No work today so I'm going shopping and then watching the rugby
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Work is good! I got the job in Waterstones, and it's been pretty good. The people are mostly really nice, it's pretty well paid, I love working with books lol, I keep seeing things I want or that I want to buy for other people.
Things are alright really, still very up and down with the man. He came for the weekend and it was great, like before, amazing. I love being with him so much, and when we're together he seems to really love being with me. And then comes the down, when he gets his depressed days etc. At the moment I'm taking those days in my stride, you could say, just talking to him etc, and then he's a lot better the next day. Meh. He has a job interview in London on Thurday, so he's coming here Wednesday, then staying as long as he can. He's even been talking about us living together next year, looking for places in Wycombe to buy so he can commute if he gets the job. This all seems so positive, but then he goes off on his little badness cycle. Good grief, how'd I fall for a complete head mental? Tut! No work today so I'm going shopping and then watching the rugby
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here..... please read it!