suziq

i bought clothes for the funeral today. a shitty black dress and a pair of shitty black stockings.
i can't be arsed with the internet anymore, it doesn't matter what i search for, the only thing that pops up are images of girls being brutally fucked all over. it's fucking depressing.
i had to phone my dad up and ask him for money 'cause my shitty job only paid me 200. and that's for two weeks. someone please write me a cv?

a week ago i had the most horrible dream i've ever had my whole life. the whole planet was swallowed by gigantic tsunami waves. everything vanished except for me and forty other people that were trapped on this block of ice that was slowly melting away. everyone was scared and upset and there was nothing i could do to help them, nothing i could say 'cause we were all gonna die. and there was no one there for me. everyone had someone they could hold on to but me.
i haven't been sleeping well ever since. it doesn't matter how many hours of sleep i get at night, i still wake up feeling shattered. i've never felt so lonely in my whole life.