i dont feel good. fucking stomach. er, i guess fucking side would be a better description. blech.
i've been alone for entirely too long. supposedly nick is coming over for a housewarming type dealie, but we'll see. if he does i'm making him buy me a bottle of baileys cuz he stole mine. fucker. lol. i'm not really mad, but i really iwll make him buy me some. tomorrow is psych club though, so that's good. maybe i'll make some friends through there.
i wish i actually liked sex more. then i could be a total slut. i'm ok with that. i think i'd enjoy it in fact. but it's hard to be all slutty when you dont like sex and you're too self consious to wlk around half nekkid.
i still have like a hundred sg stickers that i need to put up everywhere. maybe i'll do that on friday with nick if he comes over. hmm...
i also need to write some letters cuz i joined a penpal list! yay. granted, i havent given them my address yet cuz i dont know what it is, but that's ok. i can do that on friday.
right now though, i'm gonna go put on some socks and a warmer sweater. yup. it got all fucking cold again.
update- i just talked to nick. this is the entire conversation-
WorshipGoldfish: hey when were you planning on coming over on friday? were you going to be able to help me move at all or is something else going on?
Panumbrae: Something else going on... is saturday good instead?
WorshipGoldfish: sure.
WorshipGoldfish: you know it really is a bad thing that i never believe you when you say you're going to do something with me, right?
Panumbrae: I really don't like it when people do that, you know, playing the trust card. I do my best, sometimes it doesn't always work, but I try... my life is different than yours... also, people have changed their plans with me before as well, and though I may be dissapointed, I don't voice it, and I don't feel bitter about it, because I know life is complicated, and that there will always be a future, especially if it is promised... I have to go, ttyl
i havent seen him in about 2 months because everytime we make plans he changes them and ends up canceling them. i dont know what i'm supposed to do. he's the ONLY friend that i have right now, so it's not like i can just tell him to fuck off and i'm better off without him. then i'd have no friends at all. i hate this.
i've been alone for entirely too long. supposedly nick is coming over for a housewarming type dealie, but we'll see. if he does i'm making him buy me a bottle of baileys cuz he stole mine. fucker. lol. i'm not really mad, but i really iwll make him buy me some. tomorrow is psych club though, so that's good. maybe i'll make some friends through there.
i wish i actually liked sex more. then i could be a total slut. i'm ok with that. i think i'd enjoy it in fact. but it's hard to be all slutty when you dont like sex and you're too self consious to wlk around half nekkid.
i still have like a hundred sg stickers that i need to put up everywhere. maybe i'll do that on friday with nick if he comes over. hmm...
i also need to write some letters cuz i joined a penpal list! yay. granted, i havent given them my address yet cuz i dont know what it is, but that's ok. i can do that on friday.
right now though, i'm gonna go put on some socks and a warmer sweater. yup. it got all fucking cold again.
update- i just talked to nick. this is the entire conversation-
WorshipGoldfish: hey when were you planning on coming over on friday? were you going to be able to help me move at all or is something else going on?
Panumbrae: Something else going on... is saturday good instead?
WorshipGoldfish: sure.
WorshipGoldfish: you know it really is a bad thing that i never believe you when you say you're going to do something with me, right?
Panumbrae: I really don't like it when people do that, you know, playing the trust card. I do my best, sometimes it doesn't always work, but I try... my life is different than yours... also, people have changed their plans with me before as well, and though I may be dissapointed, I don't voice it, and I don't feel bitter about it, because I know life is complicated, and that there will always be a future, especially if it is promised... I have to go, ttyl
i havent seen him in about 2 months because everytime we make plans he changes them and ends up canceling them. i dont know what i'm supposed to do. he's the ONLY friend that i have right now, so it's not like i can just tell him to fuck off and i'm better off without him. then i'd have no friends at all. i hate this.
klonopin_chugger:
friends are hard to come by, but him treating you like leftovers isn't cool. do you get upset each time he does this to you or are you used to it? maybe it'd be easier to recognize him for what he is a flakey friend not your bestest of pals.