so, interestingly enough, it appears that russell's girlfriend broke up with him on monday. when he told me yes, there was that selfish part of me that was just like "ha! see, you dumped me for her, and now look what it got you! i'm glad you're single!", but that's only a small part. mostly i feel bad cuz he feels bad, and i care enough about him to want him to be happy. i know it sux being dumped. they were together for like 8 months. interesting though.
oh, and to explain the previous entry, a couple months ago i got an email from my "friend" leslie telling me how she's tired of my bitching and complaining all the time and she just can't deal with it and it's no wonder that i have no friends. she was basing this off my journal entries on my website, which were largely "i'm depressed and feel like killing myself but instead i'm just gonna type it out on here so i dont" she wasn't too concerned about the whole suicidal thing, it just annoyed her that i wasn't perkier or something. so then a week or so ago she just started chatting with me on aim very brefily and then had to go or something. today she tried to talk to me again but i really didnt feel like it. so i asked her why suddenly she feels like dealing with me again and she was like "oh, well, i just wanted to tell you how i feel, but it's ok now." fuck you. no it isn't. why would i want to be friends with someone who doesnt care about me and only likes me when i'm happy? fuck that. so i told her that i didnt want to be friedns anymore and that i did NOT want to talk to her. so yeah. long story, i know. sorry!
and i think that's all for now. i feel like taking some nekkie pics (i still owe hammersmith some), but i can't find our camera. oh well.
oh, and to explain the previous entry, a couple months ago i got an email from my "friend" leslie telling me how she's tired of my bitching and complaining all the time and she just can't deal with it and it's no wonder that i have no friends. she was basing this off my journal entries on my website, which were largely "i'm depressed and feel like killing myself but instead i'm just gonna type it out on here so i dont" she wasn't too concerned about the whole suicidal thing, it just annoyed her that i wasn't perkier or something. so then a week or so ago she just started chatting with me on aim very brefily and then had to go or something. today she tried to talk to me again but i really didnt feel like it. so i asked her why suddenly she feels like dealing with me again and she was like "oh, well, i just wanted to tell you how i feel, but it's ok now." fuck you. no it isn't. why would i want to be friends with someone who doesnt care about me and only likes me when i'm happy? fuck that. so i told her that i didnt want to be friedns anymore and that i did NOT want to talk to her. so yeah. long story, i know. sorry!
and i think that's all for now. i feel like taking some nekkie pics (i still owe hammersmith some), but i can't find our camera. oh well.
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I've got a friend kinda like that. It's never been said they don't likelistening tomy problems but I always here about there problems but when I have a problem it just "feels" like they don't care. Needless to say I try to avoid them when possible, not a big fan of one sided friendships.
Kudos
I hate it when people judge you by your journal entries. Personally, when I type in my journal here or on livejournal, I'm doing it because I'm upset. I rarely type in there when I'm happy, so I come off looking whiny and depressed all the time.
And fairweather friends suck.