susannahjoy

everything is entirely too confusing.

and i have way too many hormones in me which is really not helping.

but at leat i wont have a baby anytime soon. thank god. i mean, i love aiden and all, but i like him much better as my nephew, i dont want my own.

and neither does he.

not yet anyway.

apparently he was very suprised when he read my fantasy on here. i dont know why. i mean, i think i pretty much act like that. whatever.

i have therapy in a couple hours. yippie. i dont want to go.

of course since i lit 3 matches and then let them burn out on my leg i figure just maybe i should. normal people dont burn themselves.

i only did cuz i couldnt find my knife though. really i wanted some blood, but the blisters work too. and i like the whole matches thing cuz then i can just light them, lay them down on my leg, and close my eyes and lean back. it's almost sexual. yeah i'm a bit masochistic.

umm.... yeah. now that i wont get pregnant i want to have more sex. i keep trying to get this other guy, but he's too much into this other girl and it's very frustrating cuz he's fucking cute.

whatever.