well i finally feel better. had a nice conversation with someone special. and though nothing is coming of it, i feel better knowing i wasn't being blown off. sometimes life doesn't work out the way you hope, but oh well. I have more notes now on things I really like in a potential mate.
as for me, i'm gonna keep riding my BMX bike even if schoolchildren heckle me. fuck the schoolkids. they're sitting on BMX bikes telling me I look like a loser. Why? because I am an adult? hey I'm getting my exercize. and the more i ride it the easier it becomes to ride. it was kind of weird at first, riding around in town. everything made me nervous. plus getting hit by a van. now i ride it off curbs. thats a big step considering I've been AFRAID of bicycles since I broke out all my front teeth at the age of 12 and had to have them capped. its good too, good practice being not-scared for the motorcycle.
work still sucks sometimes. but i have friends there and that helps. been thru hell and back lately being reminded of a stupid mistake I made not too long ago. Sometimes being a girl can really suck, because you allow yourself to believe people may actually LIKE you for who you are.
At least I know theres one person who must have seen something that they liked, but circumstances get in the way.
at least I haven't let my heart curl up and die and turn black yet. i kind of have a real big stupid heart, came by that naturally. it has a small callous on it, but i think its softening.
I blame myself for the confusion I've felt lately.
at least the last time i went out and got drunk i had a fucking blast, and wasn't sad, and enjoyed the company of friends.
as for me, i'm gonna keep riding my BMX bike even if schoolchildren heckle me. fuck the schoolkids. they're sitting on BMX bikes telling me I look like a loser. Why? because I am an adult? hey I'm getting my exercize. and the more i ride it the easier it becomes to ride. it was kind of weird at first, riding around in town. everything made me nervous. plus getting hit by a van. now i ride it off curbs. thats a big step considering I've been AFRAID of bicycles since I broke out all my front teeth at the age of 12 and had to have them capped. its good too, good practice being not-scared for the motorcycle.
work still sucks sometimes. but i have friends there and that helps. been thru hell and back lately being reminded of a stupid mistake I made not too long ago. Sometimes being a girl can really suck, because you allow yourself to believe people may actually LIKE you for who you are.
At least I know theres one person who must have seen something that they liked, but circumstances get in the way.
at least I haven't let my heart curl up and die and turn black yet. i kind of have a real big stupid heart, came by that naturally. it has a small callous on it, but i think its softening.
I blame myself for the confusion I've felt lately.
at least the last time i went out and got drunk i had a fucking blast, and wasn't sad, and enjoyed the company of friends.
"life is sad life is a bust, all you can do is do what you must"
do you know the rest of the song?