having a particularly bad day. something about getting a ton of bricks thrown down on your head will do that. one day you've been happily loving someone and then BAM they're just done with you. no explanations.
I mean dammit, I have been the dumper and the dumpee before, I even once had a boyfriend tell me he didn't love me then tell me he did and he was kidding when he said he didn't. I guess I thought the drama was going to be behind me.
Now I'm dealing with feeling bitter, rejected, and lost, and he who caused it will not open up his mouth to speak nor tell me anything of a helpful nature.
I need a diversion.
I'm still screaming inside.
I wish I could get over it and start seeing someone else. but I'll be a little mistrusting from now on. Don't even know if I can love, and after the child I used to be, my parents are devastated by the empty shell they see when they look at me.
I used to be the sweetest, most loving girl.
now.....
not so much.
too bad there isnt a smiley for brooken, empty shells.
I mean dammit, I have been the dumper and the dumpee before, I even once had a boyfriend tell me he didn't love me then tell me he did and he was kidding when he said he didn't. I guess I thought the drama was going to be behind me.
Now I'm dealing with feeling bitter, rejected, and lost, and he who caused it will not open up his mouth to speak nor tell me anything of a helpful nature.
I need a diversion.
I'm still screaming inside.
I wish I could get over it and start seeing someone else. but I'll be a little mistrusting from now on. Don't even know if I can love, and after the child I used to be, my parents are devastated by the empty shell they see when they look at me.
I used to be the sweetest, most loving girl.
now.....
not so much.
too bad there isnt a smiley for brooken, empty shells.