Thursday Sep 25, 2003

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i'm thinking about moving to nyc... i've thought about it about a year ago... but decided against it because she was up here... and i wanted to be with her... but the job market is so much better down there... and i have a good friend who does computer stuff down there who might be able to point me in the right direction, and possibly give me a place to stay... and if you've been following my journal, you all know she's not in the picture... so, aside from my family and few friends being here... nothing else is keeping me here...

maybe i just need a change of scenery to get my mind off of her... i know i wasn't completely happy with her and our whole situation... but, i still miss her, and i find myself just wanting to call her... which i can't do.

i need a hobby. smile

events: tomorrow my friend liz is coming up here for a wedding... i haven't seen her in like 4 years...

sunday i might go see some bands, senses fail, allister, homegrown, the early november, and i forget the headliner... smile i haven't done that in awhile... it might give me a chance to go talk to a stranger like audio suggested, too... smile

monday and tuesday off of work... might look for a new job... smile

if i don't make it back to my computer this weekend have a good time, everyone! smile
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runholden:
I don't know what made me think of that song...I guess I can just relate...I go through the same "swings" but now they are not quite as intense...I would go through the cycle in a minute...angry, sad as shite, happy, etc...pretty manic, no? But now, I will suddenly find myself really down and when I take a second I realize that it is because of her. I guess I have gotten over the whole "world-crashing-down-around-me" stage and now I am just lonely without her. I miss having someone with whom I shared secrects...some who knew me better than anyone else on earth...someone who was the most important thing in my life...I am still trying to deal with that void...
xxanastasiaxx:
Go to NYC!!! smile

I lived in the village most of the summer, on Bleeker. Much fun! Very expensive though.

Good luck & HI btw.

[Edited on Sep 26, 2003]

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