superfall

Well, I went out with both women this weekend. I still don't know. Everyone I've asked (most of whom are women) have said there is no reason to feel guilty dating two women at the same time at the stages I'm at. At first impression I think Leah is the more likely for me to have a family with, but Laura seems more stable and has a career already. We didn't discuss it, but with her already having an 8 year old, I doubt she's in the market to have more children.

I just have such luck as to be attracted to needy people and that's what I'm afraid I've latched onto with Leah. Am I continuing with her out of a sense of self penitence? "see how I've suffered for a future reward?" but not sure of the reward and if it's worth the sacrifice? Am I attracted to Laura because I don't sense that neediness but would not being needed undermine any relationship we got into?

Anyways, it's been a beautiful weekend!