It's a gorgeous day in New Jersey. The temperature is great, the sun is out, no clouds, and pleasant breeze. In all a great day to be off. I'm at work though. 
I've reached a point of disatisfaction that demands some sort of outlet, but what I don't know. I'm bored at work, the only relationship I have is 900 miles away, I have too much debt to quit and I have the wilpower of a garbage disposal when it comes to trying to lose weight. The summer is going so quickly and I haven't gotten anything accomplished that I wanted to so far. I bought a guitar, but don't know how to play it. I want to get a tattoo, but my piercings have started to grow closed. I want a "normal" relationship, but instead I've reserected an old one and end up spending my money traveling every other month.
Melissa won't move and I won't demand that she does. I won't move because I like it better up here than in Florida. The final answer is I don't love Melissa. She's a great piece of ass, she will make a great mother, she's funny, intelligent, and we have a lot of the same interests. However, she's not the one for me. I feel like I'm wasting time though when I'm with her, but I don't have any other prospects out there.
There is someone at work (keep reading, I know what happened last time) that I find attractive, but the points against it are too much. First off we work together even if it's not in the same department. She is about 14 years younger than me. She is not looking for a relationship. I know it's the double whammy of someone in their early 20's that is very good looking that shows even a little interest in me that makes her so attractive. I know her interests are strictly platonic and I keep my interests that way as well. Even if we didn't work together, the age difference would keep me away. Since we do work together she might as well be a nun as far as I'm concerned.
All in all I want something positive to happen in my life. It doesn't have to be life changing, just positive. Is that asking too much?
I've reached a point of disatisfaction that demands some sort of outlet, but what I don't know. I'm bored at work, the only relationship I have is 900 miles away, I have too much debt to quit and I have the wilpower of a garbage disposal when it comes to trying to lose weight. The summer is going so quickly and I haven't gotten anything accomplished that I wanted to so far. I bought a guitar, but don't know how to play it. I want to get a tattoo, but my piercings have started to grow closed. I want a "normal" relationship, but instead I've reserected an old one and end up spending my money traveling every other month.
Melissa won't move and I won't demand that she does. I won't move because I like it better up here than in Florida. The final answer is I don't love Melissa. She's a great piece of ass, she will make a great mother, she's funny, intelligent, and we have a lot of the same interests. However, she's not the one for me. I feel like I'm wasting time though when I'm with her, but I don't have any other prospects out there.
There is someone at work (keep reading, I know what happened last time) that I find attractive, but the points against it are too much. First off we work together even if it's not in the same department. She is about 14 years younger than me. She is not looking for a relationship. I know it's the double whammy of someone in their early 20's that is very good looking that shows even a little interest in me that makes her so attractive. I know her interests are strictly platonic and I keep my interests that way as well. Even if we didn't work together, the age difference would keep me away. Since we do work together she might as well be a nun as far as I'm concerned.
All in all I want something positive to happen in my life. It doesn't have to be life changing, just positive. Is that asking too much?