I guess I am obsessing, and if I don't stop I'm going to chase Amy away.
She called this morning. I feel a lot better about everything now, but if we ever get a chance to talk I'm going to have to tell her what happened to me the last holday season so she can understand some of my paranoia.
Something else I decided on is that I need to cool down and step back. I'm bulling ahead and we still barely know one another. I know that I have feelings for her, but I think a large part of that is because I think she's perfect to my tastes in so many ways. However, I admit that I haven't learned much about her tastes and ways. Right now she has so much on her mind, the last thing she needs is me pushing her when she's not ready and before we are truly a couple.
I will just try and cool down and enjoy any time Amy and I can spend together and not get worked up when circumstances don't allow it. She's absolutely beautiful and I am lucky that she wants to be with me. The least I can do is not be a selfish pig.
My brother is looking better. I think he's lost some weight and he says his sugars are doing better. I worry about him. Not that I'm so worldly, but he reminds me more and more of that geek that never moves out from his parents basement. He does live on his own, but he is surrounded by friends that match the above description. He has never had a girlfriend. He never really goes anywhere he can meet women either. He spends a lot of time online. I don't know if he's tried internet dating in the area, but I know the pickings are slim. I do know he looks at a lot of porn. That's how I know he's straight.
Anyways, it's turning into a Merry Christmas.
She called this morning. I feel a lot better about everything now, but if we ever get a chance to talk I'm going to have to tell her what happened to me the last holday season so she can understand some of my paranoia.
Something else I decided on is that I need to cool down and step back. I'm bulling ahead and we still barely know one another. I know that I have feelings for her, but I think a large part of that is because I think she's perfect to my tastes in so many ways. However, I admit that I haven't learned much about her tastes and ways. Right now she has so much on her mind, the last thing she needs is me pushing her when she's not ready and before we are truly a couple.
I will just try and cool down and enjoy any time Amy and I can spend together and not get worked up when circumstances don't allow it. She's absolutely beautiful and I am lucky that she wants to be with me. The least I can do is not be a selfish pig.
My brother is looking better. I think he's lost some weight and he says his sugars are doing better. I worry about him. Not that I'm so worldly, but he reminds me more and more of that geek that never moves out from his parents basement. He does live on his own, but he is surrounded by friends that match the above description. He has never had a girlfriend. He never really goes anywhere he can meet women either. He spends a lot of time online. I don't know if he's tried internet dating in the area, but I know the pickings are slim. I do know he looks at a lot of porn. That's how I know he's straight.
Anyways, it's turning into a Merry Christmas.