sunshinpixie

Well i started my new job on Monday which was nice.i had to get up at 6.15, which was bit crap. But kinda getting into it. I have my own desk im in charge of holidays hours and sickness its quite a big job and i can't get it wrong.Jon is coming to see me soon.He may have some work for me when he works for a different production company at the end of August which i would eagerly take, would look good on cv and is experience. Jon says he will help me to know the technical sides of things.He so nice though,very career driven. Works six days a week on film set in Chippenham and helps near some famous location near Cirencester. Apparently James Bond film has been filmed there.

Anyway i cycled back today got stuck in the rain but it was nice and refreshing.

Went to Kiers grave last night. I realise alot of my pain has been for Kieran tears and anger. I just wanted to cuddle him before he left. The grave is so him unkept and individual, just like him.

I know im getting there each day is better its hard when people say how many brothers do you have.He smiles down i feel it.i feel finally like im getting somewhere.

Here s to you little man may i meet you again.

I saw how we were when we were younger close i think i felt bad as we had the bro and sis relationship towards the end, but hey i got to see you grow and what a man you would have been.

x