And on the up note i am alot better. I went dancing for three hours last night which i great. Had lots of fun.I am inb a support group now and seeing a bereavement counsellor. I feel much better than yesterday. Cat is being fucking amazing. She has helped me realise i can do this by myself.So, life is finally coming together. woohoo. Oh and having more dancing so might be dancing at local club oh how fun. Well its money. I need my straightners hair has gone from frizz to bigger frizz. Collecting stuff and dinner with Cat tonight. I can finally say ha im gonna have it. 