sunshine_junkie

Ok so I'm having relationship troubles, had to happen again soon I guess.
My gf moved away from England and she's been gone for about five months now and really has no intensions of coming back.
She's older than me and because of that expects me to move to her, but at eighteen there is no way that I feel ready for that kind of commitment. She's talking about babies and marriage and I just thought we were having not fun but something like that. It's mean for me to say but I think I always knew we wouldn't be together for long even though I loved her. It sounds stupid but she is just way too happy for my liking, I'm not a flowers and hearts and chocolate girl and she totally is. She tries to change me way too much, tries to stop me drinking and smoking and dressing the way I do, but yet she still remains so fucking nice when she's doing all of this. I don't want to be stringing her along because I so obviously don't feel the same way as hers but I don't know how to tell her this.
She just bought me an expensive present and now I feel like whatever I say she's just going to think I'm using her for her money.
I should not get into relationships period because I am very, very good at fucking them up. I do not have the emotional capacity to break up with somebody, it hurts me to hurt people *sighs* I have no idea what I'm going to do.