I'm sitting here eating a strawberry soya yogurt, which is surprisingly good.
I had an awful night, I am never having children no matter how domesticated my family tell me I am. Children do not go to sleep, they do not leave you alone, they find interest in the most mundane tasks such as using the toilet. Have you ever tried to pee while a...
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I had an awful night, I am never having children no matter how domesticated my family tell me I am. Children do not go to sleep, they do not leave you alone, they find interest in the most mundane tasks such as using the toilet. Have you ever tried to pee while a...
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I am incredibly tense and incredibly annoyed right now. I'm not exactly sure why because there are so many reasons for me to be pissed off, but if I don't allow my mind to ramble on in this tiny little journal then I'll become a health hazzard or a murderer, I'm leaning towards both at the moment.
My mother has severely screwed me up. I...
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monkeybutt:
when you are younger, you're ostracized for being an outcast. when you get older and want to be a writer, obscure ideas make you a shitload of money. if you're the only person impressed with being in the writing school, who gives a shit? isn't that enough? good luck.
monkeybutt:
ah, another two week sabbatical. how's the writing?
You know I never really realised how nosey people can be when you're on the bus. I mean if you're eaves dropping and a conversation takes a personal turn surely you should not try and enter the conversation? Maybe it's just me but when two women are having an in depth discussion about a struggling relationship the worst thing for a stranger to do is...
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monkeybutt:
grins
monkeybutt:
thank you. i like to think of them as little insights as to how i'm feeling at any particular time. but they are presents to the community as well, aren't they? good observation.
how's the writing going?
how's the writing going?
Can you believe it, it's Tuesday and I'm still recovering from Saturday night. I drank unbelievable amounts and smoked fifty disgusting fags(cigarettes) Every song was my favourite song, and I am not one of those girls. You know the kind 'Yo this is my song y'all
' I'm never going out in public again, I refuse to. Not after sharing a disgraceful grope with some...man!...
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' I'm never going out in public again, I refuse to. Not after sharing a disgraceful grope with some...man!...
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monkeybutt:
hey, we can actually be pretty cool from time to time. 
FIFTY?
FIFTY?
monkeybutt:
my frog smiles in the moonlight.
I have terrible insomnia right now and feel exhausted almost all of the time. You can see me dragging my arse along the streets of Leicestershire.
So far my new years resolutions are going down the toilet. I'm supposed to be giving up smoking cigarettes, unless it's mixed with something else, but that isn't going so well. My next new years resolution which I have...
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So far my new years resolutions are going down the toilet. I'm supposed to be giving up smoking cigarettes, unless it's mixed with something else, but that isn't going so well. My next new years resolution which I have...
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monkeybutt:
and you're back as well. how lovely for us all. have fun being merry and stoned, and fuck the new year's resolutions. it's all a popularity contest anyway.
glad to see you're back, and i'll work on angie.
glad to see you're back, and i'll work on angie.
I fucking hate christmas. Everybody's so happy and it just makes you look even more miserable than you actually are. Forgive me if I can't get excited about a fake tree and all those presents that I'm not going to get.
Anyway I expect that this will be my last journal entry because I just really do not have the mind for anything right now....
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Anyway I expect that this will be my last journal entry because I just really do not have the mind for anything right now....
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monkeybutt:
ok, i came back. whatever. i needed something to do during the break. 
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[Edited on Dec 21, 2004 9:46AM]
monkeybutt:
so, are you really gone for good? if so, have fun. i know angelina jolie if you ever wanna have a threesome.
Scrolling through the list of everything I've bought in Amazon I've noticed that almost everything is lesbian associated and I really don't know what to say about that. It's my damn thirst for literature that's the problem.
In other news I had a dream that my mums husband murdered me last night, I wish I knew enough about dream analysis to understand what that means....
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In other news I had a dream that my mums husband murdered me last night, I wish I knew enough about dream analysis to understand what that means....
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monkeybutt:
where are you and what are you doing these days? have you left the country? did zombies attack you? are you chained by the ankle in some maniac's basement?
inquiring minds want to know...
inquiring minds want to know...
monkeybutt:
good, glad to hear you have both your feet and your only wound is from...a cousin...?
thanks for the compliment.
[Edited on Nov 11, 2004 2:14PM]
thanks for the compliment.
[Edited on Nov 11, 2004 2:14PM]
I apologise in advance for this entry. I watched Saw last night in the vicinity of my sisters living room and I suppose I deserved the aftermath of the movie as I should have just paid for a cinema ticket instead of watching a pirate. That film really creeped me out and I'm not exactly sure why. I could blame the alcohol I could even...
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makishart:
He he!
Ok.. I dont exactly mean that you said.. My problem is worst..
My mind is weaked... or very strong..:/
..
But as I can see.. you are not in a better situation than me....
Ok.. I dont exactly mean that you said.. My problem is worst..
My mind is weaked... or very strong..:/
..
But as I can see.. you are not in a better situation than me....
monkeybutt:
you'll not like my new profile pic then.
My girlfriend and me are no longer and to be honest I think that, that's the best thing. She wanted too much from me, I don't want to start families at eighteen, I want to drink and smoke and make mistakes. So anyway she insists that we remain friends but I don't have much luck with girlfriends who turn into friends.
I'm a little stoned...
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I'm a little stoned...
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monkeybutt:
if you feel good about it then it's the best thing. i hope you find someone who wants the same stuff as you at the same time...
i got stoned the other night and watched session 9. not recommended if you're by yourself. scared the hell outta me.
i got stoned the other night and watched session 9. not recommended if you're by yourself. scared the hell outta me.
makishart:
hi
Ok so I'm having relationship troubles, had to happen again soon I guess.
My gf moved away from England and she's been gone for about five months now and really has no intensions of coming back.
She's older than me and because of that expects me to move to her, but at eighteen there is no way that I feel ready for that kind of...
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My gf moved away from England and she's been gone for about five months now and really has no intensions of coming back.
She's older than me and because of that expects me to move to her, but at eighteen there is no way that I feel ready for that kind of...
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monkeybutt:
hope it works itself out. it's always fun working it back in.
monkeybutt:
how are things a week later?
I'm trying to find Hurt by Johnny Cash but for some bizarre reason I can only find a tribute to it by sevendust *sighs* Oh well.
I have a cold, my sinuses are blocked up tighter than concrete and I can't taste anything anymore. This morning I put some j.d in my tea and it helped a little but I couldn't drink it all day...
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I have a cold, my sinuses are blocked up tighter than concrete and I can't taste anything anymore. This morning I put some j.d in my tea and it helped a little but I couldn't drink it all day...
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lilje:
nah, i just draw bymyself. used to draw a whole lot before, mostly faces really. used to paint a little too. just for fun. i usually use it to bring out a feeling that i can't explain with words..... good thing the advice helped at least a little bit. hope you'll get well in no time
monkeybutt:
wow, cool. all these girls are taking off their underwear for me. thanks.
Today is a really shitty, boring day. You know when you're in a bad mood and you can't shake yourself out of it? Well that's me at this precise moment.
I need a job, I'm in dire need of a job, but for some strange reason people seem to be offended by the idea of hiring an eighteen year old.
Money is running low but...
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I need a job, I'm in dire need of a job, but for some strange reason people seem to be offended by the idea of hiring an eighteen year old.
Money is running low but...
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monkeybutt:
japancakes is band, darling. not sure you'd be into them, but who knows. very mellow, beautiful, ambient instrumental with synths, violins and slide guitars. great for rainy sunday afternoon.
lilje:
mysterious and brooding, huh. okay. lets go for them believing that. it went okay. but i stuck to my lonesome self and my bf. and he was totally mysterious, brooding and weird...... no one wants to hire a 18-year old? that sucks. here youth counts a lot. i think there's 18 years old just about everywhere, in every store. or is it just me seeing them everywhere?