sunniapocalypse

So, i've been neglecting most of my journals. Mainly because most of the time im sick.

I found out that i have pre-cancerous cells in my cervix and i have three months to get rid of them before they get worse. aka really cancer. I dont have health insurance but thanks to texas and her coworker im going to try medicaid or whatever.

Texas is pretty much the sweetest girl ever. Despite my shy akwardness i enjoyed hanging out with her the other day. We had sushi. it was yummy and my first sushi eating experience ever. She was hopped up on candy. Probably the happiest i've ever seen her.

I bought new shoes. black pumas.

Im quitting walmart. I cant take it. I havent even gone back to work yet and im like man fuck it. My new manger is freaking retarded. I went in a told her the following things:
-I am still recovering from a broken leg (the paper says i can return to full duty, however i did inform her I cannot stand for long periods of time)
-I do not remember anything from the registers. Let me put it to you this way, I remember odd sequences of numbers like its nothing, to this day i still remember my moms old credit card number. I do not remember my passcode for the registers or the numbers Im supposed to know. This is not good.
-Before I broke my leg I went to part time. I was only supposed to be working 6-7 hours a day.
After informing her of all of this she says, 'Well can you work tomorrow from 11-8." I said probably not. She says "Well you come in tomorrow at 11 and we'll see if you can". Oh and it was a Saturday, and it was tax exempt weekend. WHAT THE HECK?!

So Monday, Im going to apply at ADT. I will work 3rd shift and make 10.50 an hour. I hope I get the job.






yeah im way metal

dear boy i said i said i liked,

Apparently I was wrong about you. Thanks for saying everything i wanted you to say and doing everything i expected you to do. 'I would never do that to you'. I knew you were lying. I dont know why i believed it. After everything that happens to me, I still keep trying to find what I am looking for and you are just furthering it. You were unexpected and i didnt think i would like you but i did. I was hoping since it was such a sudden thing, me liking you and you talking to me, that things might be okay. But that goes to show, that it doesnt matter whether or not i am looking, nothing good will come of myself and any guy i will ever like. I dont cheat and I dont lie and I dont hurt intentionally and dear god Im not like any fucking girl you have ever dated, but you would never the give me the chance because Im not anyone else. Im so sick of this bullshit.

Oh and another thing this goes for a different guy. You are a fucking lying asshole. I was no different to you than any other girl you fucked. Dont you dare feed any other girl the bullshit you fed me. I sat there and I fucking took it and I fucking waited around for you. You never did anything all because you said you 'thought I was mad at you'. I wasnt mad at you, and you fucking knew it. All of those times I went off on you it was because I liked you and couldnt stand knowing that all I was to you was meaningless sex. You cant fucking tell me any different. The only time you wanted to see me was when you were drunk because thats the only time you actually really wanted to fuck. Thanks for using me fuckface. I pretty much hate you. If you see me at shows dont expect me to even acknowledge that you're fucking breathing.

-love sunni

dear guys who arent jerks,

WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?!?!

-love sunni